Days of my life

Luke 2:19

2012-02-10T15:25:00.001+08:00

Luke 2:19 " But Mary KEPT ALL these things and PONDERED them in her heart. "
Luke 2:51 "...., but His mother KEPT all these things in her heart "

The word "Ponder" suggest that Mary do not just keep it but also seek to understand everything concerning Jesus.She has the privilege to follow close to Jesus,receiving teachings and revelations from Him. Just like the disciples, Jesus said " To you it has been given to know the mystery of the kingdom of God;but to those OUTSIDE, all things comes in parables...when they were alone.He explained all things to His disciples " (Mark 4:11,34)

Stay INSIDE with the Lord.To know more of Him,we have to grow in our intimacy with Him. We need to see,perceive, hear and seek to understand ALL of Him.

Just being the hands and feet of Jesus

2012-02-07T15:41:00.001+08:00

Just realized I have a testimony which I wrote last year was posted on my church's Mission Blog.

philippines/just-being-the-hands-and-feet-of-jesus/

Never thought that I can write something which someone wants to post...hahaha...Enjoy. :)

Fasting and praying

2012-02-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

Was pondering on this fasting and praying stuffs recently. A few friends were telling me, they intend to fast from when to when. Some said, they are asking for something personal, searching for an answer from the Lord. Some said, although they fasted in the beginning of the year, they have grown to enjoy fasting.

Somehow...I felt there is more to what they think fasting and praying is about. Everything about fasting and praying is good and it always bring forth a refreshing spirit with new revelations from God etc. Personally, I disagree when people uses praying and fasting all the time to expect God will bring answers to their problems when God can give us answers at anytime even without us fasting. I mean fasting and praying does bring answers to some intense and difficult problems we faced when nothing else seems to work...We don't necessary have to fast and pray for an answer, I mean like what friend said, " God is not our genie in a bottle. "

For me, I know that God speaks to me all the time. He really showed and taught me many things almost everyday even without fasting. I received different verses from Him,revelations of the word, understanding through the different sermons I hear, my spirit got stirred up, thoughts flowed through my mind...Blog entries got longer each time...etc etc. Well...I mean..I pray and fast as well, I don't diminish the power and need for us to do that.

Even in Mark 9:28-29, when the disciples asked Jesus why can't they cast out the demon out from the boy, he answered them, " This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting. "

I believe praying and fasting is a God given weapon for us all to use to bring down strongholds of evil and enter into a spiritual harvest in our spirit and life. I believe we need to be lead into fasting if this is what God want us to do in order to show us a greater magnitude of revelations to what He is going to do or want us to do for whatever we are fasting and praying for.

- Daniel the prophet fasted for the fulfillment of God's promises, and received mighty revelations from God. (Daniel 10:3).
- Ezra fasted for God's protection while carrying valuable things for God's temple. We too can fast for God's protection. (Ezra 8:21-23)

I felt impressed by the Spirit to write all these.Sometimes, it is ONLY through prayer and fasting, a powerful method that God chose to use to release a larger magnitude of His power and revelations to us or through us.

[Through fasting and prayer we humble ourselves before God so the Holy Spirit will STIR our souls, AWAKEN our churches, and HEAL our land according to 2 Chronicles 7:14] (* Taken from a website )

I'm sorry if I may seem like rambling, which I am. Anyway, lastly, I just want to say a few things about it.

- Don't make fasting and praying a trend to follow or like a diet program which makes you feel slimmer and good.
- Spending time with the Lord daily is the key that will really bring forth answers/solutions to whatever problems you may be facing with or without you fasting. ( If you cannot pray while you are fasting...to me, you are basically starving. )
- Pray and fast if you feel the Lord is leading you to do so, when He does that, He gives you the agenda and the other way around. If the Holy Spirit is not working along with you through your fasting, I guess, fasting is just another term for "dieting".

True fasting brings humility and alignment with what God wants to do in you. It breaks the power of your flesh. You need to spend time to pray while fasting not just to prepare for battle but the minute you fast, you may realized that fasting IS the battle. The enemy knows how powerful fasting and prayer can be. Be on guard.

In simplicity, my point is in writing this entry is.. Don't abuse using this powerful weapon to get God to give you what you desire or make you feel good. Lay down all self agenda of yours and grab hold of His agenda instead.

What God is truly concern regarding YOU

2012-02-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

I suddenly have a thought and some questions while I was showering just now..want to share it here before I forget about it.

What do you think is important to God? DOING what He has called you to do or BEING who He wants you to be?

If the theology is BEING over DOING...then is it an acceptable statement when one said " When I was rebellious...God did not forget me and kept me, why will He make my life miserable even so now when I am DOING what He has called me to do? "

If you asked me? This is what I think...God NEVER want to make anyone's life miserable...but without the RIGHT BEING which God WANTS you to be...you may end up spending your life being convicted and repenting constantly when God pinpoints what you have overlook the very thing He is truly concern about you more than what you will DO for him. Difficulties that come in your life will exposed your deepest true agenda of your DOING...it reveals the character level which you have grown in Him.

Do you have the STRENGTH of a RIGHT spiritual being of yours before DOING what He has called you to do? Do you have the RIGHT character to be in the field which God will eventually place you into to hold whatever He is preparing you to DO?

Do not misunderstand me here...I'm not against doing the will of God or one should fulfill their call of God in life...but is that what the Lord is truly concern about us?

Pick this out from somewhere on the net.. "Godly character is priceless because without it ... we will never be able to be trusted to handle the responsibilities God has intended for us in eternity. "

Scripture tells us in 1 Peter 1:6-9:

... You have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith -- the salvation of your souls.

He is who I am living my life for

2012-01-20T10:33:00.000+08:00

For the rest of not too sure how long...I will blog on my daily thoughts which derives from my daily devotional..prayer and worship with Him in the morning :)

‎" He must increase but I must decrease. " - John 3:30

In all that Moses were called to do.. the signs and wonders which Moses were told to perform, it was meant to show to the children of Israel and the pharaoh that HE IS Sovereign and HE IS LORD.

In all the things we were called to do, all the gifts we're given, may it always be use as a channel to display who God is...Its all about Him. I don't want to be task oriented but I want to be God oriented.

" Show me Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation;On You I wait all the day." -Psalm 25:4-5

Job 23:10-12

2012-01-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

Was reading Job 23 last night, too tired to blog my thoughts..so I did it this morning and share it on FB.

" But He knows the way that I take;when He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.My foot has HELD FAST TO HIS STEPS;I have KEPT HIS WAY and NOT turned aside. I HAVE NOT departed from the commandment of His lips; I HAVE TREASURED THE WORDS OF HIS MOUTH more than necessary food. " - Job 23:10-12

In the midst of Job's crisis, he press on in Him. He held fast and kept His ways. He valued and store up God's words which preserved him during his time of testing.Charles Spurgeon commented : " The BEST THING(His words), hidden in the BEST PLACE (our heart), are for the BEST PURPOSES (any situation we encounter),that we may not sin against you. "

Psalm 71:14-16

2012-01-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

But I WILL hope continually, and will praise You yet more and more.My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness and Your salvation all the day,for I do not know their limits. I WILL go in the STRENGTH OF THE LORD GOD; I WILL make mention of Your righteousness, of YOURS only. - Psalm 71:14-16

What truly makes an impact on the mind and spirit of the ungodly is the Christian who endures all trials, storms,pain and suffering with a confident faith. Such a believer emerges from his troubles stronger in character, stronger in faith, stronger in Christ. - Rev David Wilkerson

Psalm 18:32-34

2012-01-19T17:06:00.002+08:00

"I've learned a lot. Every single game, including this one, was a learning opportunity," he said. "When we have an opportunity to come back here, we can handle it differently. - Tim Tebow

"It is God who arms me with strength, and makes my way perfect.He makes my feet like the feet of deer, and sets me on high places. He teaches my hands to make war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze." - Psalm 18:32-34

Each circumstances and situations we encounter is a chance of learning opportunity...Its an opportunity to go one step higher.We learn to fight a good fight like a warrior..We are strengthen in Him each time. He stretches us like the new wine skin that He may pour out more new wine..new strength and strategies to enable us to fight new battles stronger than before! Do not fear but be encouraged to fight the new giants in your life, we are created to be THE HEAD and NOT THE TAIL ! God bless. :)

Faith increased to pray for cancer patients

2011-12-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

It was 20th Dec, I was in Philippines, Santiago for my mission trip. An awesome FB message came in which truly brighten my day.

The message wrote :

Hi,
I just want to inform you about the good news i received last Sunday. Sis. Rebecca the cancer patient we prayed last October in Tarlac is now cancer free....She went to the doctor and he declared her free from cancer. Her testimony caused even her husband who persecuted her bec of her faith to come to know the Lord and friends and neighbors who knew about her situation:)... Let's keep believing for more healing to other cancer patient....

Wow! I mean...Praise the Lord ! I was really touched by how God used her to bring salvation to her house and neighborhood ! Even her husband came to know the Lord becos of her testimony.

What an awesome God we serve. :)

Personally, I felt encouraged to pray for others in this area of healing now. Its really a faith booster for me. So while in Santiago, when Pst Bong's wife told me about Pst Bong's sister who will be going to Manila to do a 2nd option check up with regards to the diagnosed breast cancer, I initiated to ask the gals in the team to gather and prayed for her.

The word that me, A and B came out was on the same line, we felt that all she needed was to lay her trust in Him who healed all diseases. I am so stirred to walk in this realm of power and authority to see signs, miracles and wonders. This testimony came at the right time to boost my faith and trust in Him who is the HEALER !!

Praise to the Lord ! All glory, honor,power to Him alone ! :)

Endurance

2011-12-13T17:16:00.000+08:00

‎" Therefore DO NOT cast away your confidence, which has great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God,you may receive the promise: " For yet a little while, And He who is coming will come and will not tarry.Now the just shall live by faith;But if anyone draws back, My soul has no pleasure in him " But we are NOT of those who draw back to perdition, but of those who believe to the saving of the soul." - Heb 10:35-39

I just written something on breakthrough and now I want to write something on having confidence because as above verse we have NEED of endurance. If the bible say so, I am sure it comes along as a no-brainer as well that EVERYONE finds that they really do have the NEED of being able to ENDURE in different areas and circumstances which they may be in at different times.

This year was not an easy year, in many situations, my level of endurance was challenged and the outcome is the increase of endurance. Many times, i felt like throwing the towel. I wana give up, really...The thought that came was " Lord...You have brought me thus far, I don't want to walk away like that. "

I guessed...this was what I held on. His faithfulness and promises throughout my life. In this year to come, may it be a time where everyone, put on their seat belt, hold fast to Him who will sustain you through another wonderful ride !

Master of Breakthrough

2011-12-13T12:49:00.003+08:00

Was listening to Ibethel.Tv couple of weeks back , reading up some verses, taking down some notes, below are just some stuffs I have gathered from all these sermons I have been listening to and verses I was reading on :

2 Sam 5:17-25

2 Sam 5:20 “ SoDavid went to Baal Perazim, and David defeated them there; and he said, “ The Lord has broken through my enemiesbefore me, like a breakthrough of water. “ Therefore he called the name ofthat place Baal Perazim."

- David is an anointed king and the Philistinescame running after him.

- Have anyone seen how a water through? When waterbreak through a wall, there is usually a pressure from one side of the wallpressuring on it and then when it break through, there is such a magnitude offorce and speed.

- Sometimes we feel our life is all so pressing,just like the water pressure. There is so much resistance before abreakthrough. The water pressure is actually slowly building up into a force.

- Resistance is a feedback. There is a push backwhich is bringing out your strength.

- Resistance is going to expose the strength ofyour life. Its gona give you an awareness of what you are bringing to the nextlevel. Most of the time during this pressure building, there is a purpose.

- Most of the time, you have to first work on thislevel before the next because when you move to the next level, you will need awhole new set of you. Whole new experiences, strength and everything.

- You learn to ADJUST this resistance and pressure that is building.

- You learn to know the CAUSE. Its always humbling when some people come to you andtell you to stop at this place of resistance because it is not for you.

- Its weird which you will realized how sometimeswhen you stop at this retaining world, how little pressure there is.

- LISTEN

- Are you willing to adjust? Because when you arefrustrated, hurting, scared, you don’t usually listen very well. All you listenis that screaming in your head or your survival instincts.

- One of the key through this process is to learn how to listen. Start to listen and say “help me see what I don’t see and help me hear what I don’t hear.

- Ask the Lord to show us, “ what is it that youare doing in us? What are you preparing us for?

- There is always opportunity, challenge and riskon the other side of breakthrough. Likea new job, it’s a whole new experience. In your previous job, you are “ THE MAN“ knowing everything u know about it and now, you look so lost about this wholenew experience.

- Sometimes break through brings a world which wedon’t know what is going on there. It will lead you to another place which youwill need to conquer, overcome.

You can find a way when you co-laboring with God. This isvery much His promise and mine.

- God will ALWAYS either find a way or create one.

- What is it that you are carrying into the nextlevel.

- Jesus and disciples. Jesus just said FOLLOW ME.He did that 12 times. I don’t know what happen in between FOLLOW ME and themdropping their nets But they just did it ! They did not even asked when tofollow me or where are we going.

- JESUS is the MASTER OF BREAKTHROUGH. If you justtrust in Him and follow Him, He will bring you to where He has in mind for you.

Overcoming times of Spiritual Frustration

2011-11-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

2 weeks ago, it wasn't the best weeks I have experienced, I went through a time of frustration. Frustrated with everything. My life, my job, church..ministry...I was near to the verge of giving everything up. I am sick and tired of having nothing going on in my life. Maybe its one of those " End of the Year" syndrome...where you were trying to reflect the year thinking whats next and when you came to a realization that it seems like NOTHING is NEXT ! Frustration came in....After sharing it with friends...having a dear friend praying for you...thrashing things out with another dear friend who happens to be a pastor... :) Yup...I know that is an awesome combination..FRIEND + PASTOR...I can just say...All by His grace and favor.. :)

I shall just talked about, the few things that went through my mind and what had helped me during this period of tough times.

1) Wrong thoughts : I was frustrated why no one is able to see and help me move to the next level.

Right thoughts : Why am I dependent on people to move me to the next level !? Let God be the ONLY one who open the doors for you, as only by His grace and favor...Let God be the one that sees us through...See how He moves in your life. He is in action not always in the front but MOSTLY behind the scenes! :)

2) Wrong thoughts : I am not growing, learning. I am stagnant at where I am. There are times like this, where we are growing in the fruits of the Spirits but we did not take time to appreciate growing in our inner man.We yearn to have something seen than the unseen.

Right thoughts : Always remember, your BEING precedes your DOING. Its not your works that God sees. Its your heart towards Him that He cares. He is constantly preparing you in your BEING, so that when He place the ultimate DOING which He has prepared for you, you will be steadfast enough and stable enough to handle it.

At the end of the day, be it if there is ever a paused moment in your life, where everything seems to stop OR if you are going through spiritual frustration, my advice is...never BLAME God for it. Trusting in His nature, that He is our Ever Faithful, loving God, will help you to put the right perspective back to you. Don't go off-track...Faith and Obedience is the key to overcome these times. ;)

" Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full amd to be hungry, both to abound and suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. " - Philippians 4:11-13

Why Do You Believe in God?

2011-11-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

Why Do You Believe in God?: Great thoughts pertaining to the question "Why Do I Believe In God?" Fact, Faith or Emotion?

Growing up, the idea of God was presented as a possibility. God, the man upstairs as it were, was at least an option of the table for me as a child. Granted, He was not Jesus Christ, the Messiah, but He was at least mentioned.

Years later, when I finally did meet Christ, I believe I was much more open to saying “yes” because at the very least, I believed in a God, if not the God.

Ironically, now that I am devoted to Jesus Christ, my family wonders why–how. Why have I become a “Christian” (often said as a dirty word). Why do I believe so wholeheartedly and completely in God?

This question is a lot trickier than it appears. I’d like to give some simple, succinct, yet powerful answer, but the truth is…I can’t. The answer is so much more….

Instead answering the question of why I believe in God, in part, comes down to a series of events and the subsequent emotions associated with those events.

Here’s what I mean: God saves. I feel secure. God protects. I feel safe. God redeems. I feel hope. God gives. I feel humbled. And so on and so on…

My belief that God is real and alive and living in me, is not a guessing game, but rather me acknowledging who He is and what he has done for me. I can look back over my life and plainly see when and where God has stepped in, directed, prompted, challenged, or encouraged me.

Not only can I see Him working in my life, but I can also feel Him. Now this is where my unbelieving family gets even more skeptical. Feel Him? Yes. Feel His presence.

Sure, it sounds nebulous. It even sounds a bit irrational and kooky, but anyone who truly loves Jesus knows what it is to feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. Once it is experienced it cannot be mistaken. It cannot be faked or forgotten…and it certainly cannot be forfeited. You will always want more.

In knowing God, I also know that one of the strongest pieces of evidence that He is real and working on me is because of well, me. I am not who I used to be. I am a new creation. I don’t say this casually or flippantly, just throwing about a cliche scriptural reference.

I am a new creation. I am so far removed from who I used to be and who I thought I was that it can only point to belief in God. I’m not sure if people change on their own. I don’t think they really do. There has to be a catalyst and mine was Jesus Christ.

Lastly, as my faith has grown and matured and my eyes have been opened, I see more and more evidence for the existence of God all around. From the vastness of the stars, to the raging oceans, to the dense forest, to the profound love of my husband, to the sound of my children’s laughter, to watching my belly swell with life and feeling that life move inside of me–only to be born through what can only be described as a miracle…

I see God everywhere. The evidence of His hand is unmistakable. Yet, I will just continue to pray for those who have yet to have their eyes opened.

Why do you believe in God? Is it factual, faith, emotion, all of the above? What did you believe about God before knowing Him?

The Young man and the keys

2011-10-12T16:01:00.000+08:00

Sharing a video here, sometimes we are so blinded by what we want and our own expectations...only to know that our Father have long prepared to give us our heart desires which He put it all in His words...

Tarlac trip 8th October 2011

2011-10-08T16:41:00.002+08:00

We total had 4 sessions of teaching by Pb since last night and 3 sessions from this morning til afternoon about 2pm. What a feast of the word of God !

As I was doing the projection for Pb...it reminded me of the 1st trip i made to Philippines which was here in Tarlac, in this church as well. I kinda got reminded that this was the place where God placed a desire or an interest in my heart. A passion and liking to minister and pray for the people in church during altar call, learning from the preaching or teaching from the pastor, helping the pastor with powerpoint,easy worship etc. It just all came back to me...its like walking down the memory lane of where it all started.

Staying in the same hotel...i recalled where I first met T...the sofa area where I chatted with Ph for a long night til she forgot she was supposed to think of what to preach...lol..

Coming back to this place, the church...it just brought back lots of memories..at the same time reminded me of that love..desire..I have for Philippines...the place and even what I love doing...to be able to minister to people...be it sharing the word...praying for them....I enjoy every bit of it... :)

Fresh touch from heaven

2011-09-27T17:19:00.003+08:00

Sunday morning, I woke up as usual..I prayed and told the Lord that I am really tired sometimes...I know there will be tougher times ahead. I really need a fresh touch from God, a fresh word from Him. I told the Lord I know I need Him so much more now.

When I went to service, our worship leader sang this song by Jesus Culture, titled " I need You more ". I was like.." wow..my prayer.." Then Pastor Margaret Seaward spoke about asking for fresh touch from heaven to keep the flame in us burning. Awesome! God really answered my prayer fast..!

I attended the 2nd service of the Filipino congregation and H was preaching. Yes..H was preaching at 2nd service this time. :) Guess what did she preached on?? .................... " Touch from God " ! Wow wow wee !
What an alignment of word. :) After she preached, she felt to pray for everyone to have a fresh touch from God. I stood at my seat, pondering for the longest time if I wana go and be prayed for. Alrite...I am abit shy to go...cos its like I dun fully belong to their congregation, if someone will know what I mean. Anyway, I then told the Lord, " Well...Lord...I asked for it this morning...you are giving it to me the 2nd time...why shouldn't I get a double portion of fresh touch from You !? " So I went... ;)

H prayed for me and she said she felt this word keep on coming back, that the Lord said " You just have to please me, not anyone else that is all that matters. You just have to do that to see amazing things happen before you. " I went to the back, helping B with the projector as everyone was in praying mode. My tears were rolling down becos its not the first time the Lord is saying this to me. I told Him, " I am trying not to please anyone, every time I do something that You asked me to, there will be people saying this...there will be people telling me that....all I want is to make peace for both sides...I cannot do it without You making a way for me Lord ! " How exasperated I sounded, isn't it? hahaha :p

Anyway, I was thinking today...I prayed, " Lord if all I have to do is to please You...then I dun even want to think about how will things gona turn out, what to do..etc...as from now. From now on wards, I just want to be happy reading Your word everyday...learning more about You every day...the bottom line is...I just have to trust You are doing what I am not doing everyday...which is to make a way out of this situation of mine. "

Thank You Lord...for all that You are doing and all that You are gona do. In Jesus Name...amen.

Psalm 106

2011-09-27T16:29:00.001+08:00

Just want to put down some notes and thoughts after listening to the sermon of Pst Bill Johnson as usual.

He was reading on Psalm 106:13,19,24-25,28-31

In verse 13, we can truly learn and be reminded from the mistakes children of Israel from this verse. It says, " They soon forgot His works;They did not wait for His counsel,but lusted exceedingly in the wilderness,and tested God in the desert.And He gave them to their requests,but sent leanness into their soul. "

Lesson to learn from above verses :

1) They FORGOT His works. They did not remember what God has done for them.

2) They DID NOT WAIT for His counsel. They are running ahead of God.

3) They LUSTED exceedingly even in the wilderness. Their fleshly desires overtake their godly desires.

4) They TESTED God in the desert. Their disbelief causes them to test God's ability even when God have shown them signs and miracles !

I love to read the word of God becos it always bring warnings to us..teaching us to learn from the mistakes from people in the bible.

Below are some of the quotes mentioned by Pst Bill Johnson :

- Complaint comes out of unbelief

- There is no fellowship between the table of God and the table of demons.

- A lot of people are showing religious zeal against others.

- Kill compromise before it kills you. Compromise brings you to the walk of deception.

John 6:35

2011-09-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

‎" And Jesus said to them, " I AM the bread of LIFE. He who comes to Me shall never
hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst. " - John 6:35. ‎" And Jesus said to
them, " I AM the bread of LIFE. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst. " - John 6:35. When we "COME" to Jesus...He feed us with FOOD which is ALWAYS enough...when we "BELIEVE", He offer us drink of His LIVING water which is EVER flowing...

I wrote the above on my FB status just now. Was listening to Heidi Baker's sermon on ibethel TV
online. She never fails to make me want that kind of love she has for Jesus. She is constantly
worshiping and praying on the stage. Her title was " Stop for the one ". She said, " First, stop for
THE ONE above then The one in front of you. " This reminded me of what Pst Yang said during
service yesterday, which I clearly remembered among all things was this.. " I am not saved to
serve...I am saved to love. It is becos I love thats why I serve. "

This is so true...God first causes me to love, it is becos I love thats why I want to serve. People can be demanding...unreasonable at many times...yet I continued serving becos I love the people I am serving. We will stop for The One God has called us to when we learn to first love THE ONE who called us. :)

In John 6:35,as i was reading..I realised there are 2 words which require action. The word " COME " you need to first take a step to move and the word " BELIEVE " is a choice you need to make in your heart. Both needed action and when we "COME" to Jesus...He feed us with FOOD which is ALWAYS enough...when we "BELIEVE", He offer us drink of His LIVING water which is EVER flowing...Jesus is the source of my all. In Him, it is ALWAYS ENOUGH. :)

Obeying the Holy Spirit

2011-09-14T17:21:00.001+08:00

During last week, for 2 days, I think the Holy Spirit is teaching me to obey Him. Though the things He asked me to do ain't too big a decision or a thing, I think He is training me to learn to hear Him and obey.

On the 1st time, I felt in the morning that the Holy Spirit is telling me that I might be wearing the same T-shirt as one of my friend...so He actually asked me to bring an extra t-shirt with me...but I think to myself..maybe its just me imagining. Then when i met my friend, "Lo and Behold"...we truly wear the same top...strange thing was that, the Holy Spirit asked my friend to do the same thing !! He asked her to bring an extra t-shirt which she did not as well...oh well...so I drove home to change cos we din want to wear the same...I have to waste carpark money for disobeying...oh bummer.. :p

The 2nd time, I asked a friend if she want a lift to go somewhere...she said its ok she can just call a cab. So I left it as that on that day. The next day morning...the Holy Spirit asked me to tell her " I WILL fetch you ", He wanted me to say it firmly to her to not leave her with choice. I asked the Holy Spirit..." Why must it be "I Will"...I dun want to do that...to me...when I made an offer of help to someone, if the person rejected my offer, my pride will say " dun want then dun want ", I am not begging to serve.

Then throughout the whole day, I gradually understood the reason why the Holy Spirit wants me to say " I WILL " becos He wants me to serve the person as He knew my friend will be all tired throughout the whole day...He just wants me to serve her. I told my friend this story...she asked me why I din want to obey the Holy Spirit...is it becos it will break my pride? I did not deny, I answered, " yes.. "

I really thank the Holy Spirit, I know He is teaching me to discern His voice and learn to see the result of obeying and disobeying. I am truly learning, therefore this morning, the Holy Spirit told me to give a word to my friend, I did...she said, " Thank you for obeying the Holy Spirit. " Whatever I was supposed to tell her, it puts the puzzle together for her.

It takes obedience to be used by the Holy Spirit. I am learning...little by little. Thank you Holy Spirit...be magnified in my life.. :)

Looking with the eyes of God

2011-09-14T17:05:00.000+08:00

Went to bed earlier these past days. Ever since the trip back from East Timor, I was really tired. I am SURE it is not because of growing age! :)

Anyway, this trip is totally not part of my plan. To me, the day where the Lord confirmed that my love for a particular nation is from Him, I was so focused and set to give and do all I can for the people of that nation. I have never consider other nations, not East Timor for sure.

In this trip, I've learnt that it is really not easy being a missionary, especially being a missionary to a nation where there are restrictions and persecutions. The missionaries at Transformation Alliance shared how hard and long they labored for disciples and souls to be saved.

I pondered on the question people asked me, " Why do you like to go for mission trips? " I think, other than loving to travel to Philippines...Each trip I went, brought me new revelation of who my God is...learning to look at things with His eyes is one important lesson I've learnt during mission trips. It is not about what we are going to do there but what He wants to do in each trip that matters to me.

Choice of no turning back

2011-09-14T17:01:00.001+08:00

" As a Christian, there is some relief in confessing that my world is surely the Lord's and all that is in it. It is also my starting point, the place where I begin the journey toward home. I am not flattered on my way to this house, but transformed by the very one who prepares the way. "

We all have a choice to make at different point of our life. We can choose to live in the world or follow Christ wholeheartedly. For me,I gradually made up my mind that in my life...all that I am doing..it should be " ALL of Him and None of me "...glory to God alone.

"No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God" (Luke 9:62).

The day I decided to go back to the arms of my Father in heaven. The world shall be behind me and the cross before me. Every step of the road I can sensed its getting narrow in each battle...in each trial..BUT I've set my heart for Him. I asked for His grace and favor each day...to keep my feet on the path He has set me on...keeping my heart tender ALWAYS before Him.

Thank you Lord for all that You've done and all that You are going to do...In Jesus Name. Amen.

Aug Trip to Philippines

2011-09-01T17:12:00.001+08:00

I just want to do a "short" note on this trip. Hopefully, i will be able to make it short instead of preaching it long. LOL..!

Anyway, I had an awesome encounter at the Home for the aged on our 2nd day in Philippines.

As I was standing at the bed-ridden section, an old grandpa just walked pass me, shook my hand and said, " Salamat (Thank you in Tagalog), God is here, I can feel His presence. " At first I just went, "oh ok." but right after he walked passed me, I felt the strong presence of God. All I did was smile to myself and enjoy His presence. I know He is right in front of me during then.

Less than a minute again, brother Andy from Way of the Lord church turned to me and said in a more excited,agitated manner. He said, " Sister Yvonne! God is here, I can sense His presence ! "

Brother Andy also shared that when he was at the Home for the aged, he smelt a nice fragrance. He actually followed the smell and every where this fragrance goes...the grannies and grandpas there were very quiet, clam and gentle. There was a grandpa at the back, who was actually excited and shaking his hands but as soon as the fragrance reached him, he put his hands down and became quiet and gentle too.

This is so awesome! So cool rite !?

For this trip, I actually shared at the women's correctional.I shared on Psalm 121:1-2, "I will lift my eyes to Him.." The word "WILL" in this verse speaks of choices. That was something I spoke about and even Kathy spoke on topic along the same line which I am glad that we are flowing in the Spirit. It is the first time, I shared a message and not just a testimony on a mission trip. I am just glad it went well. :)

I love this whole team, everyone is fun loving and willing to help one another. We even want to plan another mission trip to Philippines together again! :) Coolness !

Pastors's needs

2011-08-02T14:55:00.001+08:00

Few years ago...as I was seated at the usual eating place...I saw this pastor walking around in church. Then I have a vision of this pastor walking around with a mask...then after awhile he wasn't with a mask anymore, he was smiling and talking to people...after a while...underneath the mask i saw him looking unhappy.

I went home thinking what was that about?? Then I started to think that about how sad are pastors as alot of times they have to be so strong in front of people but actually they could be in their worst time of their life !

Many people expect pastors to always be on their spiritual mountain top all the time. Its like, whenever we see them, we have to think that they are on spiritual peak 24hrs, they must be all smiley and joyful at all times. Which I began to think, who will be the one who reaches to these pastors who are not happy..who are actually in their spiritual wilderness or maybe even at their point of drifting away?

Of course I understand the verse " For everyone to whom much is given, of him shall much is required." (Luke 12:48) I know as God promoted them to be in the place of being pastors, much wisdom, grace and whatever they need, God will provide. They will even have their own spiritual father to consult or they will have friends who will keep them in prayer but what if there are unresolved issues where the person doesn't even step out to confess because they ARE pastors as they are EXPECTED to be holier than thou.

While I was having lunch just now, I have these thoughts again. I am just thinking what is the major problem here when I've heard about pastors that quit? Other than burning out, discouraged...etc. I just want to keep praying for them. They are the people whom I felt they needed most prayers and encouragements but yet most times they are ALWAYS ministering to people so much that in actual fact they need people to minister to them even more. May the Lord send them right people whom they can reach out to when they are in deep need of prayers and support. Maybe I have a heart for pastors...I duno..just a thought but in my little ways..I guess right now I can only keep them in prayers...May the Lord use me and show me ways where I may even be of help for them in any ways.

May God continue to give them grace and blessings. In Jesus Name...Amen.

FORGOT...FOR GOD

2011-07-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

[ " Now in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved" Lord, by Your favor You have made my mountain
strong.. ] Psalm 30:6-7

This morning, I was talking to a friend from the states, he said he was good and is busy doing some project. Then I spoke to another friend as well, she too said she was good but busy. Being a thinking child...I started to have this thought. Does one often stop to think what, why and who they are busy with or for?

We often times got so busy with work, ministry and in the midst of it all we FORGOT why and for whom it all started. I then asked B if she ever have such experience which she got so busy and for a moment forgot why she was doing it. She said she have such experience and it came because it replaced the quality time which she used to spend time with the Lord.

It is actually all about prioritizing and remember not to let anything take away the quality time to just sit by His feet. I was thinking to myself, we often ask the Lord to give us the desires of our heart but if it is going to replace my time and my love for Him then I know why the Lord is not giving it to me.

Sometimes we FORGOT that everything we are doing on this earth are supposed to be FOR GOD. He may grant us the desire or dream of our heart but may it not in turn be the very thing that draw us away from Him....

His heart

2011-07-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

During P&W in the service today...the Lord spoke to me....

He asked, " Do you love My people in Philippines? "
I replied, " Yes Lord ! "
He said, " Then search My heart for them...My love, My compassion for each of them... "

I cried because I can feel His heart...His love for His people.... :_(

Thank you Lord....each time u spoke to me..U let me feel Your heart beat for Your people...I cried bcos I can so feel Your heart....

East Timor Day 1

2011-06-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

We arrived at Dili airport almost 1hr earlier than expected.

Shortly when we arrived, while going towards custom..B and C were stopped by the immigration officer..they were asked to go into the office for questioning. The rest of us were waiting for them at the immigration.

After about 15mins-20mins, B came out and request for one of us to go with her to the office. Thank God, Pst Jembot was travelling with us, he helped to speak to the officer who was trying to make things difficult for them, as he knows how to speak their language.

We finally realized why Pst Jembot wasn't able to go back to East Timor earlier. All the delays from his side was so as to let him travel along with us. :) God is indeed sooo good and faithful. Once again, the Lord has shown us, our thoughts are not His thoughts, His ways are not our ways either.

Next thing the Lord showed us favor was to help us settle the problem of transport. We nearly couldn't get a car to travel up to Manufahi as most cars at the Car Rental shop were reserved and booked. We managed to get one big 4WD instead of renting 2 cars which might cost us $950 USD for renting for 5 days.

Thank you Lord for the whole day and a nice dinner, resting at Dili for a night, will travel up to Manufahi in a few hours time. Continue to speak to us Lord....keep us safe throughout the drive up to Manufahi, i ask for your angels to protect all of us...In Jesus name...Amen. :)

No victory without a battle

2011-06-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

Leaving for East Timor tomorrow. Finally............................

From day one when I was asked to go along with the team, I was quite reluctant. I must admit that I am one person who needs a certain amount of....Ahem...comfort.. :p Going to a village area...?? Goodness...it may be fun and exciting for missionaries or people who are called to be or people who enjoy that kind of hands on mission trips....but for me....*shake head* NO WAY...Deciding to go for the trip..on its own...to me was already a battle with myself and God...Who is the winner? God of cos !

Anyway...i decided to use a night to pray and seek the Lord about it and I felt the Lord reminded me of my prayers to Him..which i asked of Him to let me experience Him in a deeper and different way...telling Him I want to know Him more and see Him. He said, " Go and I will show you..." I was like... " Erm..I must go in order to see that? How about going to other places?? Possible? ( Still bargaining.. ) After minutes... " All rite Lord...make my unwilling heart willing... " After I agreed to go, as days went by, after meeting and speaking to some friends, I received more confirmation in my heart that the Lord wants me to go for this trip. I then started to feel a little excited about the trip.

Through out the whole process of booking the air-tickets for the team, the battle with the enemy started and never seems to end. We had problems buying the air-tickets due to the prices which were too high and we even made several changes to the dates in order to get the ideal price. One of the members of the team who was supposed to join us decided to back out because the air-ticket was really costly for her. To cut the long story shorter, we finally purchased and confirmed the booking of the air-tickets on 31st May.

Next, we received news from pastors of other churches who told us that the East Timor missionary pastor who was supposed to be the key person who will arranged everything for us, he might have to be in Philippines to take care of his wife as she will be going through surgery during the month where we are supposed to go. I am thinking...change the dates again !? No way !

We decided to persevere in prayers , contending in this. As we all felt that due to much resistance and obstacles we have already faced and are still facing...God is definitely going to do something great in the nation. Right up to the past 2 days, the missionary pastor have not yet confirm if he will be able to be in East Timor.

Last night, I received a call from my team leader, she asked me to check how much will it cost to change dates and if it is possible to make changes for our flight. In my mind, I am like, " oh come on...not now !? The flight is TOMORROW ! " The reason being is that the missionary pastor might not be able to be in East Timor tomorrow.

Anyway, the whole of last night since 12am, I tried to call the airline to check the possibility of changing flight and how much will it cost us if we are able to change it. Yet no one was picking up the call as it was already past 12midnight. The interesting thing was, when i called Silkair, they said they can't find my name on the flight !? Gosh.....! Not another problem !? Later about 1230am, my team leader texted me and asked me to read Mark 6:45-52, she said we are facing the same thing as the disciples ! I began to read the chapter and prayed with the verses, asking God to come into the scene to cease the wind that is coming against us, we will be of good cheer, we will not fear as we know God is in control.

After all the phone calling and praying, its 2am and I was thinking to myself if I should kept on calling or sleep but I felt the peace in my heart to just rest and knowing He will take care of everything. All I need to do is continue to praise Him even in my sleep.

This morning, I was thinking, should I call my team leader and ask about the status? Or I will wait for her to call me? I decided to wait for her call instead and when I woke up 630am this morning at my usual time, I told the Lord, " No matter what might happen, your praises shall continue to be on my lips and I just want to worship you now...Lord..this is clearly not a trip WE decided to go but it is a trip YOU want us to go...If its of Your will...You are UNSTOPPABLE! "

So I began my day this morning, feeling the joy and having the peace that God is taking care of the situation. True enough...my team leader called me at 1030am, I picked up and answered, " helllo....er huh.....so.....? " She went, " hellooo(giggle)...we will...er...we will.....GO ! " Then we both laughed out loud !!

We started to share about all the actions that were going on last night on her side and my side....even this morning, Holy Spirit began to prompt her what to do, I will not blog on that here as this blog entry is long enough... :p I just want to say.... Praise God ! He is indeed faithful and we are really going with great expectancy to see what God wants to do and accomplish there in the next few days. There is no victory without a battle and there is no mountain top without a valley. Thank you Lord !

A True Servant of God

2011-06-08T18:00:00.002+08:00

" Let a man so consider us, as servants of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God. " 1 Cor 4:1

6 things about Serving, a servant is someone.. :

1) Who doesn't care about reputation

2) Who cares about what God thinks rather than men

3) Who doesn't get frozen in self-doubts and over-introspection

4) Who doesn't go beyond the Word of God, in other words, someone who goes according to God's plan, words and purposes.

5) Who does all the above without a single stint of PRIDE

6) in whom the world sees the difference and serve with THE HEART OF JESUS

" Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. " ( Philipp 2:3 )

Opposition help us turn to God

2011-05-16T14:59:00.001+08:00

In mere couple of months...there were many moments where i felt opposition coming strong. It drew me to think small of myself...many times i felt discouraged...confidence beaten...felt alone. In all these, i felt God have taught me sooooo much. I was dying and desperately wanting to rely on God's counsel alone during these times. I began to apply the word of God which says that God is our strength and we draw living water from Him alone. If i have at any one point let the emotions of my flesh take over...i think this day i will be the most depressed person.

The Lord taught me and showed me that there are flaws in everyone...myself..even leaders...when God show it to us, it was never meant for anyone to condemn or judge, that is not our JOB ! I want to REMIND anyone who might be reading this...It is NOT for us to judge anyone especially towards authority God put upon our lives. Like it or not...there are leaders above us. I am happy to have gone through all these which brought me to another level of understanding of what God has spoken into my life and how determine am I to stick to the Lord and co-partnering with Him, to see promises of God upon my life to come to pass.

If God were to give us everything we want easily, we will probably just be a couch potato with bible on our lap...the way to eternity with the Lord might not be easy but it is certainly beautiful...

This is the word i received today and my prayer today :

" ..to do whatever Your hand and Your purpose determined before to be done." ( Acts 4:28)

Lord...don't let me settle in anything less than my full inheritance that i have in Jesus Christ..don't let me fall short of the calling of God on my life...May you just glorify through me..I'm nothing BUT YOU ARE EVERYTHING !

Nehemiah 6

2011-05-09T02:11:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to revise my property course's notes...i can't helped it but to put it away and read the word of God.. :p Anyway, I've been reading Nehemiah as part of my daily devotion lately. As i was reading chapter 6, there were a few verses which i would like to pen down some thoughts that came to me while reading :

1) In chapter 5, Nehemiah have to deal with oppression before he continued in his work of rebuilding the walls. Now in chapter 6, Nehemiah have to deal with conspiracy from his enemies. Hearing from many pastors, " When you are doing the work which God has called you to do, be sure to see and experience great hindrances and obstacles.

2) There will be enemies or people like Sanballat who are trying their best to steer you out of your course or calling, they will try to convince you to cease your the work which God had called you to accomplish. (Verse 1-2)

3) Though the enemies kept on pestering Nehemiah, he was not shaken nor distracted from fulfilling what He was called to do. (Verse 4)

4) When the enemy is desperately stopping you from doing God's work, they uses tactic like accusation.
( Verse 8 " ...but you invent them in your own heart." ) How many of you know that our heart is capable to do things as such of inventing things that are not true? The bible mentioned " Out of the abundance of our heart, the mouth speaks." We are constantly warned about our thoughts and mind, we need to ask God to guard our heart and mind daily.

5) (Verse 10-14) God give us discernment to know the plot of the enemy and He also give us wisdom to know what to do.

6) Another weapon the enemy love to use and hinder us from moving is to instill fear in us.

No matter what we are doing, stand firm upon His word and instructions to you. Ask for discernment and wisdom in all that you are doing DAILY. The enemy will not stop disturbing you but when you have His word, hold fast unto it, be sure you will not be easily shaken.

Will you still be willing to serve even when no one sees it or appreciate it?

2011-05-01T19:25:00.002+08:00

Last night, I was reminded about a question which this lecturer asked us in SOL class last year. He asked, "Will you still be willing to serve the Lord even when no one will know, no one sees or even if no one appreciate it.?"

He was explaining that at the place where he is serving, no one will know what have or had been done in the church. He is just a nobody to many people around the world. He might not have a chance to earn himself any big name, like other preachers, but it will not stop him from making disciples or reaching out to the people of that nation.

I clearly remembered, I responded to that question and i said "Yes Lord, big or small, known or not, I just want to serve You all the days of my life. I want to be willing to serve You even if no one appreciates, understand or sees it."

I was tearing last night as I recalled this question and as I remembered my answer...I just want to say, " I want to honor what I've responded Lord...I pray and ask for grace and favor... Lord...My word to You still stand this day, I don't want to back out from what I've said to you.."

I clearly know that as I'm serving the pastor, the people or even my friends in church, I am doing it with ALL my heart because they are God's people and not mine. If I am serving because of myself or thinking that I can get something out from another person, I am only doing or serving because it is for myself. I do not want to get offended or angry because others don't understand why I'm doing certain things.

Lord...I want to serve You and Your people with all my heart.

" Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait for You. " Psalm 25:21

Like a fire

2011-04-26T11:30:00.000+08:00

Have been thinking about this song since last nite...Love every sentences in this song... Let Your presence come and saturate every part of me~~ Make me new~~Let Your spirit come and move within~~~Lord You are all I want~~

Jesus I'm desperate for You~~Jesus, I'm hungry for You ~ Jesus, I'm longing for You ~
Come like a flood and saturate me Lord.....

Lighter side of life...

2011-04-19T15:41:00.000+08:00

I was watching an interview of Pastor Bill Johnson, Kris Vallotton and Danny Silk, they were talking about Bill Johnson's new book, titled " Center of the Universe. "

Pastor Bill was sharing about how Danny Silk first came to Christ. One day, when Pastor Bill gave an altar call for salvation and he remembered there were 2 person who came up, 2 guys, one is Danny Silk and other guy. When Pastor Bill was praying for the other guy, he felt that he had full of repentance and when he looked at Danny Silk, he thought to himself, " This guy ain't gona last too long..." In a year or so....the guy who should last..left and Danny Silk was the one remained. Kris Vallonton said, " We got to keep him close to us so that he don't backslide...hahaha... "

Its really funny sometimes....God always work in the opposite way or manner from how we think things will often turn out to be or happen...be it good or bad...it always amazed me...it provokes my desire to want to know Him more...There is a serious side where we get all focus...pursuing after God and there is also a lighter side of life which we can appreciate..learn and love God's humor... :)

Take me to that place...

2011-04-16T14:19:00.001+08:00

I finally decided to go for the East Timor trip after considering and praying about it for a night. I never have a single intention of going from the beginning, though i helped out by checking and booking their air-tickets.

It was that one fine day, 4 days ago..while having dinner with B and H..they were chatting about the trip.Suddenly B turned to me and asked, "Why don't you come with us? " I went.." huh? " Then H said, " Yah...actually, why don't you go with them? " I am like..." Now what is going on? Why? Why must go? "

This time round, i was thinking..there must be a reason why they kept asking me to go and maybe it is time i give this a serious consideration. I asked B why she kept asking me to go and she felt this is really going to be a life changing experience and she sensed in her spirit that God is going to do something there...Then i think to myself.. ( Of cos...so "ulu" (rural) the place...that experience will definitely be life changing..) but if you asked me if i want to be at where God will be in action...i WANT !

Maybe for people who love to rough it out...or adventurous, it might be exciting for them. I must say, not for me. I am definitely not someone like dat, i need a certain amount of comfort, maybe i should say, i am quite pampered since young. I have never ever been thru tough life or suffer much in life so to speak.

Anyway, I prayed about it...this time when i said YES to go for it...I felt a struggle within me...its that kind of feeling when God is breaking something in me and I can recognized it. You might not believe but i struggle within me so much that i almost cry...Its like the spirit says Go...the flesh kept saying, " You will suffer if you go.." Gosh.....

I prayed and told the Lord...knowing if i wanted more of Him just as how i prayed every time...I know i have to go...I need to be at a place out of my comfort and familiar environment. This is really testing to me....the 1st thing is the 9hrs drive to the village, next is the house we might be staying is not going to be a hotel nor even hostel. The Lord said, " This will be the place where you will be able to experience more of Me.." This time i say, " Not my will, but Yours be done, Lord..... "

Everyone's a critic

2011-04-15T15:44:00.000+08:00

Just to share on how do you respond when you receive criticism from someone, it doesn't matter if it is true about you or not, what really matter is how we respond to it. Here is an article from John Maxwell's devotional :

Everyone's A Critic
Then Miriam and Aaron spoke against Moses because of the Ethiopian woman whom he had married; for he had married an Ethiopian woman.
Numbers 12:1

Leaders can bank on two truths. First, they will be criticized. Second, criticism always changes the leader. Unhappy people tend to attack the point person.

Moses' only family criticized him. Notice what God and Moses teach us on how to handle criticism (Numbers 12):
1. Maintain your humility. (v. 3)
2. Face the criticism squarely. (v. 4)
3. Be specific about the issue. (vv. 5-8)
4. Lay out consequences. (vv 9, 10)
5. Pray for the criticizers. (vv. 12, 13)
6. Restore them when appropriate. (v. 14)

Beyond that, consider the ways leaders should handle criticism:
1. Understand the difference between constructive and destructive criticism.
2. Look beyond the criticism to see the critic.
3. Guard your own attitude toward the critic.
4. Keep yourself spiritually in shape. Associate with people of faith.
5. Wait for time to prove the critic wrong.
6. Concentrate on your mission; change your mistakes.

1 Kings 13

2011-04-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

Was reading 1 Kings 13 today. It speaks about this Man of God who gave a word to King Jeroboam. When King Jeroboam tries to arrest him, his hand started to wither and he plead the Man of God to intercede for him that his hand may be restored, which it did after this man of God prayed for him.The king then said to the man, " Come home with me and refresh yourself, and i will give you a reward. "

The man of God said to the king, " If you were to give me half your house, I would not go in with you;nor would I eat bread nor drink water in this place. For so it was commanded me by the word of the Lord saying, " You shall not eat bread, nor drink water, nor return by the same way.' "

Later on, an old prophet who ran up to catch hold of this man of God and lied to him saying, " I too am a prophet as you are, and an angel spoke to me by the word of the Lord, saying, " Bring him back with you to your house, that he may eat bread and drink water.' "

This man of God was killed by a lion as he has disobeyed the Lord.

This man of God in only mentioned in this chapter and he is neither Josiah, David nor any other big names like Moses. He is just mentioned in this bible as a MAN OF GOD. I have a few thoughts on this chapter but still i went online to search for more info on this particular chapter.

" At the critical moment when Jeroboam himself was about to make an offering to dedicate the altar, the man of God appeared. He announced that the priests using the altar would themselves be burned upon it along with the bones of those who were buried near the sanctuary.

What is the meaning of burning bones? In Israel, the burning of anyone's bones is a serious matter; it effectively cuts off that person's inheritance in Israel; there is no place in the land for him, not even for his bones. "

Anyway, i want to list the things i caught from this chapter :

1) God can use anyone to speak a word of knowledge, or to receive a word of God to give to " Kings " ( Pastors or leaders).

2) Stand firm on the word of God given to you

3) God DO NOT give words that contradict. How is it possible that God will tell you not to do this and that and give a totally different word to another person to tell u " please do this and that.. ". God is not a God of confusion.

Like what is said here, " Unlike the man of God, we are not to quit on God's will because of royal protest or government decree. We are not to turn back because of counter advice. We are not to be taken in by the generous or the hospitable. We are not to be led astray by those who seem to have a deeper authority. Nothing, absolutely nothing, is to prevent us from giving our holy God total obedience. "

Always test the word of God, we are people His children whom God gave us a level of discernment to know His words and voice. Don't get all excited on a prophetic word, test it as well. For me, God spoke to me about knowing and remembering His words for me and not to derail from the purposes He has for me. I realized at the end of the day, hold on to the promises or the word of God, no one can mislead you if your foundation and focus is the Lord your God. :D

Generosity in Christ

2011-04-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

" There is one who scatters, yet increases more; and there is one who withholds more than is right, leads to poverty. The generous soul will be made rich, and he who waters will also be watered. " Prov 11:24-25

I'm sure the first thing which comes to your mind when you read the above verse will be the word " GENEROSITY. "

Well...when i was reading it, i was thinking about generosity in all aspects.

“He who loves a pure heart and whose speech is gracious will have the king for his friend.” Prov 22:11

We can be generous and gracious in our speech as well. Appreciating others by words of affirmation, encouragement, compliment are ways we can show God's love in valuing others.

We can also be generous in our gifting, our compassion, in our time, with our possessions to share it with others. Little do we know that the amount of time we spent talking, sharing with others and to share the blessings which God gave us with others...we are actually honoring God for everything He has given to us. Having the heart of gratitude towards the Lord, it somehow compel us to share it with others in great abundance.

When we seek to be generous with what God has given to us...i believe He will bring us to a whole new level of understanding in every area of our life.

John 13

2011-04-05T12:09:00.002+08:00

Was reading John 13 and i came across this verse saying "BEFORE the feast...Jesus knew that His hour had come that He should depart from this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in this world,He loved them to the end. "

Taking note that this was what Jesus felt BEFORE the feast and to His foreknowledge, He knew what would take place and when the supper being ENDED, meaning after the feast, it was also the time when the heart of betrayal was placed into Judas Iscariot's heart. Yet, " He loved THEM to the end. " I believed He meant ALL of His disciples even Judas.

I took some time to think about if i can ever be like Jesus in this area," loving people to the end ", especially people whom in my critical and judgemental mind, those people whom i felt "betrayed" me, "abandoned " me , "disappointed " me so on and so forth...( anyone knows that negative thoughts can string off as long as you can or want to think if it all ends with the word "ME" ? :p )

I know i can never love like Jesus, firstly if the focus is all about ME. Secondly, if i intend to try and love others by my own strength, clever plans or thoughts. Just like when Jesus washes the feet of His disciples, He said to Peter, " If i do

not wash you, YOU HAVE NO PART WITH ME. "

1) We need to be cleanse by JESUS to be part of Him. Ask God to wash away self-centeredness and all other things

which prevent us to walk in all purity and righteousness in Christ.

" For I have given you by example that you should do as I have done to you. "

2) We need to live by Jesus's example.

" If you know these things, happy are you who DO THEM. "

3) Be doers of His words.

It really amazed me whenever i read about God's love even towards people whom betrayed Him, rejected or forsaken Him. Even when He knew what will be happening, He chose to carry the cross and walked to Calvary. Every step He took on the way to that cross must be so heavy...yet He chose to do it , so that one day the heart and mind of ALL mankind on this earth may come to know Him and fully understand His love.

Philip Yancey, the renowned author, said this: "Here at the cross is the man who loves his enemies, the man whose righteousness is greater than that of the Pharisees, who being rich became poor, who gives his robe to those who take his cloak, who prays for those who deceitfully use him. The cross is not a detour or a hurdle on the way to Kingdom, nor is it even the way to the Kingdom; it is the Kingdom come." :)

Teach me how to love like you do Lord..Teach me to love and appreciate everyone around me. As every individual which you've brought into my life have contributed in displaying or teaching the different characteristics of You...Thank you Lord for everything....For teaching me to see the different aspects of you in every individual i will be meeting or have met...In Jesus name...amen..

Its OFFICIAL.. :)

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Received a great piece of news last nite...now i supposed i won't have identity crisis anymore... :) I can now really help without having the fear of thinking what others might think or say....

Went to the airport to pick up a fren with TS and B...Our fren went for a retreat with a team of people... Anyway...we reached the airport early therefore 3 of us went to a cafe to rest and drink while waiting for the arrival of our dear fren.. :D When i started to see some others who came to wait for their spouse who are also part of the team, I told TS and B that i will go to my car while they wait for our fren..as i do not wish to let the other team member see me picking up my fren in case they start to think too much about it...i just want to avoid unnecessary problems....

When i was reading in the car...i started to pray...asking the Lord why do i have to be this discreet...why do i always have to try to avoid this and that...i actually felt terrible when i have to do this...i was tearing a little.. :p I asked the Lord when can all these stop.... As usual, my Father seems to hear and respond to every of my tears and prayers....My dear fren came back with the good news...

I can now really help with permission given from my highest spiritual authority...Its OFFICIAL... ;)

Thank you Lord...I really witness how you fought this battle for me....Its another testimony about how you intervene on the behalf for your beloved ME especially when I learn to let You be the God of my life....when I surrender the situation in Your hands...You never fail to move mightily...I love You Lord...From the minute i stop lamenting...You kept encouraging me...You kept reminding me to fix my eyes on You alone and reminded me over and over again the word of prophecy You have given me...I know You want me to know its all about You and obeying You that matters....Continue to be the center of my life Lord...Bring me deeper unto You Lord....In Jesus Name...Amen.. :)

Be my strength, Lord, when i am up against the wall - Jon Walker

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I love to pray this prayer...just sharing...May God be your strength and confidence when you are up against the wall. There might be times, you want to battle everyone and things on your own, BUT may you let God fight the battle for you.

There are times i want to defend myself, at the end, i grew weary...when i commit the battle to God and let Him fight for me, i realized He will even speaks on my behalf. When we decrease, He will increase! :D

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)

Use as a prayer:

Father, teach me to wage spiritual war in your manner and not according to the world. Guide me to live—and to fight, argue, enter conflict—with weapons of the Spirit and not weapons of the flesh.

Be my strength, Lord, when I am up against the wall. Father, bring me to a point where I no longer have any confidence in the flesh, but my confidence is only in you. Lord, train me so that when I face conflict, discouragement, or temptation—when I collide with any obstacle—I rely on you and your way.

The truth says you’ve given me the power and authority to demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of you.

So, rather than getting into arguments, I can point to the truth and I can state the truth. Lord, make me ready to use the tools you provide and show me how to “demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against” you. Show me how to take every thought captive making it obedient to Christ. Show me how to do that and show me what to do. I commit to doing what you teach me to do.

May this be so, my Lord. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Apostolic Teams - Pst Bill Johnson

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APOSTOLIC TEAMS

by Bill Johnson

For centuries the people of God have gathered together around specific truths. Denominations and organizations have been formed to unite these groups of believers. Having common belief systems¹ has helped to build unity within particular groups and define their purpose. Historically these groups were formed from people who were usually newly saved, or were asked to leave whatever denomination they were previously a part of.

Unity based on common doctrines has a measure of success. But there is an inherent problem with this approach – unity of this nature is based upon uniformity. When God is saying something new,² those who are listening are usually asked by their leaders to leave the group they were a part of.³ Their newfound convictions and beliefs are considered threatening and divisive. If the whole group doesn’t move in step with what God is saying, there will be a break in fellowship. When agreement in nonessential beliefs are considered necessary for fellowship, then division is natural and to be expected. While doctrine is vitally important it is not a strong enough foundation to bear the weight of His glory that is about to be revealed through true unity.

Change is in the Air

There are major changes in the “wind” right now. For the last several years people have started to gather around fathers instead of doctrine. In the natural, it would be easy to imagine a father with two very different children – one politically liberal and the other conservative. While discussions would probably be quite lively at the evening meal, they would not bring an end to the family. Gathering around fathers gives a stability that enables people to endure differences in opinion without falling under the influence of the spirit of offense. Fathers bring an element of peace that is impossible without them.

Spiritual Fathers

Apostles are first and foremost fathers by nature. True fathers continually make choices for the wellbeing of their children with little thought to personal sacrifice. They are not jealous when their children succeed, but instead are overjoyed because of those successes. It is normal for a father to desire his children to surpass him in every way. Brothers compete, fathers do not.

In the same way that a father and mother are to bring stability to a home, so the apostles and prophets are the stability of the church. The Apostle Paul calls them the church’s foundation.⁴ Good foundations bring stability. The concept of team ministry starts with these two. Stability is the primary fruit of the ministry of the apostolic team.

Team Makeup

Apostolic teams are not necessarily made up of just apostles and prophets. They are a group of people that carry the ‘family mission’ without selfish agendas. They are sent by their leadership, and entrusted with delegated authority to establish God’s rule in their realm of experience and expertise. When they go with that heart they carry an apostolic anointing because they function under the umbrella of the apostles authority.

We can’t be co-missioned until we’re in sub-mission to the primary mission. This is true of every believer before God. But it is especially true of apostolic teams. Setting aside personal agendas is a big part of the success of team ministry. Many teams have failed in their mission because of an individual who wanted his/her gift or opinion to be recognized.

Measure of Rule

A big misunderstanding occurs when apostles think they have the same measure of authority in every geographical location. When Paul went to Jerusalem to participate in the first Apostolic Council,⁵ he submitted his experiences to the other apostles who had also gathered there. It wasn’t until James, the apostle in Jerusalem, spoke, that there were any conclusions. A true apostle carries their apostolic authority wherever they go, but it is foolish for him to not recognize local authority. The same is true with apostolic teams. It is their respect for the local church and the biblical authority that helps them to serve effectively.

Authority, like favor, is for the benefit of others. It is not a title to help in building ones own self-esteem, and is never for personal gain. For that reason the Apostle is at the ‘bottom of the stack’ . . . the ‘least of all’. The title simply recognizes function. And that function is to make others better and more complete in their walk with the Lord.

The Purpose of the Title

Throughout history there have been many ordinary individuals who have become desperate for God in unusual ways, and have sought God with reckless abandon. The encounters they had with God made them appear extraordinary. Their breakthrough made them household names with remarkable gifts and ministries. But when God gives someone an unusual gift, it is never for the purpose of acquiring admiration and fame, or even drawing big crowds. Those things are normal byproducts, but they are not the purpose. The place of favor that one gets as a result of God’s unusual touch on their lives is a God given position to equip others. It is God’s heart to take those high points of human experience in the man or woman of God and make them the new norm for the believer. Equipping the saints becomes the focus of true fathers.

The Spirit of Revelation

One of the things that helped to keep the early church strong and healthy was their continual devotion to the apostle’s doctrine.⁶ However, you’ll notice that there is no mention of a list of beliefs that the Bible declares to be the official record of important doctrines. It is safe to say the “apostles doctrine” is referring to something other than a specific list. Peter understood this when he exhorted the church concerning ‘present truth’.⁷ That phrase is to direct our attention to that which the Lord is emphasizing for this season. That is the apostle’s doctrine. The word coming from apostles is to bring clarification of the Father’s focus for the church, and in turn strengthen our resolve to His purposes. Fresh revelation carries fresh fire, which helps us to maintain the much needed fire in our souls.

Apostles carry a blueprint in their hearts concerning the church and God’s purposes on the earth. They are used to bring fresh revelation to the church. Apostolic teams are sent to represent their spiritual father, and carry the word that has been entrusted to their ‘tribe’. They help bring an understanding and establish an order needed in the particular location they were sent to.

The Need for Others

God never gives the whole picture of His plan for the church to one father/apostle, or even to one tribe. Scriptures declare that “we” have the mind of Christ,⁸ not “I”. Dependence upon the whole is essential for us to grow up in a way that pleases Christ. As the various “tribes” learn to work together we will see a more complete picture of the Father’s intent for planet earth.

The revelation carried by Apostles and the five-fold ministry will result in a church coming to a common knowledge of the Son of God.⁹ Much division presently exists in this area. He is our common focus. A study of the scriptures without the Holy Spirit giving understanding creates much religious conflict. Division exists because people are committed to different levels of truth that appear contradictory. Fathers are necessary to sort these things out. Variety, without uniformity, is important. These teams carry revelation to help the church to live out of a common revelation of Jesus – who He is, and who we are because of Him. God’s aim is to fulfill His word in John 14:17 - “As He is, so are we in this world.” We are to become like the Jesus revealed in Revelation chapter one – resurrected and glorified. We are not headed for the cross – we live ‘from’ the cross. Apostolic revelation has that in mind.

The Day of Power

One of the more notable prophets of our day recently told me that he wouldn’t be able to come into all that God had created him for until the apostles came forth to their appointed place. The apostles help release the prophet into their destiny, and visa versa. In a sense they complete each other.

Apostolic order without apostolic power is to be questioned. Order based on biblical principle that is lacking biblical power is tragic at best, and deceptive at worst. Order does not exist unto itself. The wineskin exists for the wine. The wine is the focus. All order exists to house God Himself – not to restrict Him, but to accurately express Him. Wineskins need to flex in order to be useful, because of the expanding nature of the wine in the fermenting process. The Holy Spirit brings constant change, and to house Him means to embrace flexibility as a way of life. The goal is not to create a perfect structure or government. It is to create one that recognizes Him, and flexes with His changes.

Last Days Assignment

All of this serves one purpose – Jesus is returning for a bride. For this to happen the harvest must be brought in, and must be “cleaned.” He’s not returning for a bride that He has to heal up and put together like a puzzle in heaven. He is returning for a bride whose body is in equal proportion to her head, and whose parts work together in coordination. It’s called a “glorious church, without spot or wrinkle”¹⁰ in scripture. Anything less is an illegitimate vision.

The bride is to make herself ready for that day.¹¹ As Larry Randolph puts it, “it is a perversion to think that Jesus will dress the bride before the wedding.” Our assignment is clear, and the gifts are in place. And they are all expressions of Jesus Himself. But they are simple in purpose. Re-present Jesus to the world!

The fire of God must rest in the souls of men. Christians without passion are almost as great a mystery as Christians without purpose. Apostolic teams carry fresh fire with divine purpose. They enlist men and women to God’s dream, and in the process the church steps into her destiny.

1 There are three basic levels of biblical doctrine. 1. There are doctrines that are essential to the Christian faith – For example, Jesus is the eternal Son of God. 2. Then there are doctrines that are important, but not essential – For example, how we use the gifts of the Spirit in a church service. 3. And finally, there are doctrines that are good but not essential – For example, the exact nature and timing of Christ’s return.

2 This is never in addition to scriptures. Instead He unveils what is already there.

3 This is far from an absolute rule, as many leaders are in tune to what God is saying. However, some are more concerned with preserving past accomplishments over and above the advancement of the kingdom. This creates a weakness that tends to miss God’s present word

4 Ephesians 2:20

5 Acts 15

6 Acts 2:42

7 2 Peter 1:12

8 1 Corinthians 2:6

9 Ephesians 4:

10 Ephesians 5:27

11 Revelation 19:7

God is our greatest encourager !

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2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal Encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word. (NIV)

In the Book of Psalm, David cried out to God many times in his despair moments, disappointments, asking the Lord to deliver him from his trouble and adversaries but David during the time when he was praying, he wasn't thinking of immediate deliverance, he ALWAYS never fail to continue to wait and depend on God, trusting in Him because he knows God's faithfulness and loving kindness never fails. That is why God calls David " a man after His heart. "

I guessed few weeks ago, when i was feeling down and out, disappointed...all i needed was a word of encouragement. During that time, i didn't think of asking it from God or who so ever, all i knew was i needed it. I have frens who constantly listened to me...pouring out my frustration..disappointments and all my thoughts...I am thankful to the Lord for giving me frens who love me and patiently listening to me...the things i said during then wasn't the most sane or spiritual words...it was just emotions i needed to let out. Instead of seeking frens, David seek God to pour out his emotions, knowing God is his only solution. I'm learning to do just that as well.

It was only last week, when i was just whispering to the Lord and asking him for an encouragement, right after 15mins...i received not just encouragement but encouragement in abundance !! Praise God ! Then i was filled with joy...not because of the words prayed upon me...or prophesies..but i was smiling because God answer even to my whisper ! Hallelujah ! LOL...

I was chatting with a fren yesterday on FB, she was feeling how i was few weeks ago. Whatever encouragement i have received, at this point, I just want to give it to her as well. I told her that sometimes we are expecting encouragement from our dearest frens...but when we asked the Lord for HIS encouragement...no words from anyone beat that ! I was only whispering to the Lord to ask Him for a little encouragement...God gave it to me and much more in abundance !! That kind of joy...REALLY gave me strength ! Thank you Lord...for being the greatest encourager in my life ! I want more Lord !! MORE !!! :)

An awesome week indeed.. :)

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I have been sooo blessed through the week...I thank God that He brought new friends into my life..which gives me more reasons to visit United States now. I'm so glad to have met Carol, Daniel, Cindy,Maleika,Naomi and Johnny...great and lovely people. :)

It wasn't a very good week for me before i met them last week...was feeling low...upset...i can't even find a reason to smile during then but so many things happened just within a week during Randy Clark's conference which totally changed my life..even spiritual atmosphere around me if i can say...

Other than the salvation of my mom..i want to say on Sat...as i was walking back home to take my car...on the way walking...i was just telling the Lord.. " Lord..all i need is a little encouragement now...just a little will do... "

After 15mins, i drove my car back to church and entered the audi once again...i met Cindy who came up to me and said, " You look like someone i know in Thailand..i don't know why..oh..i just want to bless you... " Then the next minute, i realized she started praying that she wants to impart all that she have to me...etc...When i was closing my eyes to receive...i felt many more hands on me...i figured almost the whole team is praying for me! :D Talking about encouragement....God sent His people to encourage me.... :)

On Sunday, Cindy called me down to the altar once again...saying.. " I just love your spirit..you have such a beautiful spirit... " Shortly, she prayed to impart everything that she have to me once again...then this time she prophesied over me...the couple of things she mentioned are almost the same as what was said during presbytery...great intimacy with the Lord...leadership...leading people...apostolic..This time...i felt the Lord really just know what i needed....He was reassuring to me what He has said before..even now...it has NEVER changed. I felt Him telling me..." Don't worry...you are still right at where i want you to be...You are doing what exactly i want you to do...don't get confused by people...just listen to me...don't worry..... " That was what really touched me and i felt instant peace and joy... :D

I was really at some point confused by what people were saying...I was asking the Lord.." Did i run too fast..did i hear you wrongly at some point?? Bcos i asked of You to lead me every day Lord...so was it bcos at some point i made a wrong decision ? " Then now...I guessed all He wants to reassure me was that He is right there with me all along as i am walking with Him...just don't get confused and distracted...keep on walking alongside with Him.... :D Yup...that is what i want to do and continue doing...

God is good all the time....all the time...God is good :D

I am the fruit.. :D

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Whenever i was sharing about my testimony, i will always say, " Since young, i always have this thought, i want to be a christian but i duno why.. " My frens.....now i know why..... :D It soooo touched me....it sooo encouraged me...it soooo filled me with His love for me and my family....

The day when my mom got saved...as she was sharing with Sister Carol that one of the reason of anxiety was also bcos i am always sick and in hospital bcos of my epilepsy when i was little. Now this is the amazing story :

" When she was young, sick and in hospital...there was a girl sleeping next to her bed...the mom spoke to me about how Jesus heal her daughter..so in my heart..i think...i hope one day someone will bring my daughter to church... "

My gosh....God honor that thought of my mom...a purest thought from a mother's heart that she hope Jesus will heal me... :_( Tears was rolling down but i wiped it away...

Thank You Lord...bcos of that thought from my mom....You brought people to my life who brought me to church...You even constantly sent street evangelists to me so that i can say the sinner's prayer...though i have met so many of them...that you may even get tired of me saying the sinner's prayer...Now..i really came to church...to Cornerstone...I grew up in church since my teenage days...i came to know You Lord....You saved me and then now You saved my mom.....I am the fruit from that seed which was sown by an unknown lady to my mom's heart....over the years...different people watered this seed...look at me Lord...i am a grown up girl now...I was once lost but now...I can't live a day without praising Your name...You have brought wilderness in my life but You always never fail to deliver me and make sure i grew stronger after each trial and testing....You have given me a wonderful family....You have given me soooo much that all i want and can do is to give my life to You and to serve You all the days of my life.....In Jesus most precious name i pray....AMEN...

This is the Day that the Lord hath Made

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3rd March 2011 - Mom received salvation during Randy Clark's meeting ! Praise the Lord !

Thank you Lord for orchestrating from the beginning till the end.

Mom has been falling very frequently during these past 2 months. I told her i really believed prayers can heal..she said " ok..then you pray for me.. " I told her about Thursday Randy Clark's meeting and asked her to come with me...she said ok. =)

During CNY, i brought T and invited H to my hse for dinner. I always prayed about it whenever i thought of doing some things and i really felt the witness in my heart that this was just the right thing to do so that my parents can meet my frens whom i travelled along with to Philippines and to let them know i am very well taken care of by my frens even while we travel.

I felt when she fell for the 2nd time in Feb, i went home with T... on the way to hospital..H wanted to come along...so 3 of us fetched her to the hospital...then H managed to speak to her...prayed for her....all these was just the beginning of God placing people around her to speak life and care for her..being a light during times when she felt weak.

All these above was like doors opening for her salvation, one by one.

Last week, dear fren, D texted me and asked if i wana take half-day leave and bring Randy Clark's team for sightseeing n the afternoon. Strangely, i replied immediately " YES "...after i texted..i came to my senses and thinking..." Really? I can go? I mean..i can take leave? " Then i realised, Dad will not be in town and i can go to office earlier and finished some work then leave.. :D God made a way for this...thruout the whole day...he never called back office wierdly too...This is God's favour No. 2. :D
I met Sister Carol and her husband, Bro Daniel from the team, after i shared with them about my mom, they prayed for me and my mom...she said she sensed that the Lord is saying that my mom's panic attacks cld be due to her sister..i dun quite understand that so i told Sis Carol that i'm not sure.

D-DAY - Mom came and it was long meeting til 10pm, i brought her down to the altar to receive healing...but as she can't really go to the front of the crowd as mom was really fearful from falling..so we sat at where Auntie D sat on..Pst Cam was really trying to find someone to come over to pray for her....In my mind, i prayed and think to myself that i hope Sis Carol can come...but the altar area was soooo filled with people that i thought chances cld be sooo slim. Lo, and behold...God made a way No. 3...Pst Cam really brought Sis Carol to pray for my mom !! I love JESUS ! :)

When Sis Carol prayed for her, she asked her the qns about the sister...this really shocked my mom...she asked Sister Carol who told her that...bcos she knew it was true....Sister Carol just said that it was God who wanted her to ask and God told her that is the problem. After we prayed for healing...Sister Carol asked if she wants to receive Jesus to her life...my mom said YES !!!! Sister Carol even prayed for the baptism of the Holy Spirit for my mom....!

As you read....just look at how God orchestrated this whole thing....How could I live without my Lord, my saviour and my King ! :D

Maintaining the Crosswalk

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Just heard an amazing sermon that really speaks to my heart thus would like to share my notes here. :) May it bless anyone who chanced upon this blog. ;)

MAINTAINING THE CROSSWALK - Pastor Bill Johnson

Proverbs 22:29 & Proverbs 23:1-3

Mark 10:17-22

John 15

If Christianity is not under the influence by Kingdom/heavenly culture, then it will innocently create its own culture which eventually undermines the real gospel.

Every move of God always releases a fresh music.

The breakdown is NOT the promotion; it is what we do with the PROMOTION.

“There comes a time an increase and favour, for some crazy reason, the church never does good in times of favour. “

The problem is not the favour; the problem is forgetting what got us the breakthrough in the first place and not knowing how to sustain it.

Excellence brings you before influential men. It’s just the nature of life.

There is a difference between perfectionism and excellence, perfectionism is religion and excellence is kingdom.

If you move out of excellence and pursue the resources of Kings you will lose the place of influence as you hold a different set of values now.

God is refining us to represent Him well.

When there is a greater breakthrough, the opposition is even greater.

The Lord will take your gifting; your grace that will rest upon your life and put you in a place where you can weather and navigate opposition well without become bitter, resentful, proud and arrogant but instead navigating that life and realizing the Lord is refining us to represent Him well.

He wants to take you that process of opposition to trust us with influence. He is interested in salvation of sins.

God is not looking for minor harvest; He set His heart for the redemption of humanity.

He made it possible and then he put people in different places of influence in life so that we can learn to navigate this thing call life so that every promotion is a promotion for the word of the Lord, the presence of the Lord, the message and demonstration of His kingdom.

Promotion is not for self-gratification but the position is used for honouring the name of the Lord.

Can a person without glory give Him glory?
Each has been created with a measure of authority, a measure of glory, our job is to take what we have and give it to Him.

As He promotes us, we come into an increase sphere of influence where it now is put upon Him to bring Him glory.

Straight and narrow road- There is ONLY one door which is absolute abandonment, absolute yielding to the complete work of Christ. We step into this kingdom realm and realize God is not interested in our desires and the way to get in is to turning down all our desires.

We emphasise the fact of the need of fulfilment of significance.Jesus gave Himself to be crucified, the Father raise him by the Spirit.

My job is to prefer others; His job is to exalt me. The moment my appetite change from preferring others to preferring me, I have chosen one level off.

Submit yourself to the mighty hand of God and He will exalt you in due time.

Can you and I be entrusted with prosperity with purpose? Can you handle 10 fold increases with what you presently have and still maintained what got you through? – Luke 10

Because if he can maintain the same priority that he have with little, he will succeed with much, the breakdown comes we shift the priorities from little to much. The shift comes when there is new opportunity for favour.

Your life is design in such a way that there is a culture of heaven that will affect how you think, how you speak and how you treat people; your world view is influenced by heaven perspective.

A day out with Randy Clark's Team

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I really thank God for giving me the opportunity to go out with the team. A group of amazing ppl, with great stories and testimonies ! I was "wow" by some of their testimonies... :)

Got to know a couple, Bro Daniel and Sister Carol, they prayed for me and my mum..gave me lots of hugs and kept saying how glad they are to have me in the team today. :) They are such lovely people...before i went out today, i wasn't in the best of mood...but at the end of the day...i received such love from even people i just got to know of...I guessed the Lord knew how much encouragement i needed lately and brought people to do just that. :) God is sooooo good to me.. The couple made me feel appreciated for even little things i did not think of as much a help....Sister Carole said, " You don't know how much you've help me with even this little act of kindness.. " It sure put a smile on my face... :D

Its not abt the praises that people sing of me....i don't fancy all these....I guess they showed me great love out of their deep appreciation for my help that touches my heart deeply especially lately..

Its the start of Randy Clark's Healing and Impartation conference today...i am expecting something and i am excited.. :)

Larry Stockstill " Remnant " Meeting Day 3 Evening session

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LARRY STOCKSTILL - 12th FEB ( Sat - Evening )

MISSIONS, VISIONS AND HARVEST

Matt 28:19-20 “ Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the father and of the son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age. “ Amen. “

- No GO, No Role
- Nap is spiritual..hahaha.. ☺
_ Famous Sermon: Sinners in the hell of an angry God

3 M’s of Mission, You need a:

1) Mandate – Mission is a personal mandate. If you have a passion that is burning, you will be motivated. Mandate means you have something in you that you won’t stop until you stop someone from the lake of fire.
A mandate is a drive to make you do something.
- Acts 10: Peter in Cornelius’s house
- Theology determines actions
- How shall they be saved if we don’t preach? How shall they hear without a preacher?

2) Method - Mandate without a method, you will not go anyway. Method is the gear and mandate is the engine.
- God’s method is a man NOT money.
- God’s method is the training of a faithful man.
- 2 Tim 2:2 “ The things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. “ It’s about disciples, building churches and churches.
- Why do we want to act like a CEO? When all that Paul did was to have a Luke and Timothy.
- Without MAN, Money is worthless

3) Money – God does want to bless you with money for missions.
- God wants to bless you with prosperity with a purpose.
- God will give us the resources that bring salvation to the world.
- Whatever you ask for in regards to His world mission, WATCH GOD MOVE !
- All we need is a little money to get it going. STRETCH THAT FAITH !
- God will give you whatever you wish for WORLD MISSION !
- 2 Cor 8/9

When there is a BIG ENOUGH WHY, You will figure out the HOW !

Video -Bush Masters Snake

Larry Stockstill " Remnant " Meeting Day 3 Morning session

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LARRY STOCKSTILL - 12th FEB ( Sat - Morning )

BUILDING A TEAM – ( Part 1 )

Psalm 16:11 “ You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At your right hand are pleasures forevermore. “ – Devotional verse

Philippians 2:19-23 “ But I trust in the Lord Jesus to send Timothy to you shortly, that I also may be of good comfort, when I know your state.“

“On site with insight “

Apostolic methods to multiply yourself – Its love and relationship
- The people are the sheep and the shepherd interacts with the sheep.
- Acts 20, 18 men, Paul called them spiritual sons.
- Paul spent his days walking and talking and building men.
- “ Fellowship with all, Partner with some BUT build on SONS. “
- Paul built his ministry on sons.
- Partners will determine your accomplishment BUT sons determine your legacy.

He is after a feeling of validation and impartation.
Who is your spiritual mother?

7 Qualities of son/daughter:

1) DNA – You will carry the DNA and kindred spirit of the spiritual father/mother.
2) Spiritual son is proven worthy. Paul said, “ I know Timothy has my interest at heart. He is proven worthy.”
3) They’re servant.
- He is not concern about title, recognition but will bring every assignment to the next level.
- They are unseen but yet they served.
- Look for people who don’t say “ Where is the lime light?” but for someone who will say, “ Where is the toilet that I can clean. “
Philippians 2:22
As leader a true son is a servant

4) A true son is loyal – A true son will rather die than to split the church they’re in.
- Loyalty is a lost commodity.
- LOYALTY is very important to GOD.
- They would rather be wronged than to divide a church.

5) A son is a FAITHFUL envoy/messenger

6) A spiritual son is a pursuer – They are not after anything but a relationship.
1 Cor 4:17 “For this reason I have send Timothy to you, who is my beloved and faithful son in the Lord, who will remind you of my ways in Christ, as I teach everywhere in church.”

7) A true son is a follower. He knows how to adjust a leader, asking God to change him/her not constantly telling the leader how to change their ministry.
2nd Session - Building a Team ( Part 2)

THE CRITERIA FOR SPIRITUAL FATHER

- Isolate who is gona help me develop to the next level and how to be a good father/mother.

1) True fathers see his son as non-disposable asset. Your spiritual son/daughter is your best asset.

2) A true father is not absentee – Giving unconditional access to the spiritual sons/daughters. Whatever they need, my resources and all resources to use.

3) True fathers/mothers are always proud of his/her sons/daughters.
- When is the last time someone said,“ I’m proud of you “? A father gives affirmation in large doses. Affirmation is true key to greatness.

4) A true father allows his son/daughter to make mistakes.
- Everybody makes mistakes, those mistakes are training and you don’t abandon them.

5) A true father/mother is totally committed to his/her son/daughter success.

6) A true father/mother always desire their son/daughter to be greater than them. Eg. Saul has David, David would have died for Saul, and he fought Goliath for Saul. Saul was bothered when he heard the ladies said he have thousand and David have ten thousands.
- Every time when there is a passing of anointing to his/her sons/daughters, the anointing doubled.

7) True father/mother embrace his son/daughter’s vision and calling, He affirms it and he accepts.

8) True father/mother models Christ’s character. He/she never brings reproach to their children. A good name is better than anointing. A name that is identified to Jesus.

9) True father/mother speaks the truth to his son/daughter. They are not afraid to correct character. He/she takes it as their responsibility.

10) True father/mother allows his/her vulnerability to be seen. He/she is not afraid to say, “ I blew it. “ Transparency and vulnerability is what builds the depth in the relationship.

How is your fathering/mothering going?

Larry Stockstill " Remnant " Meeting Day 2 Evening session

2011-03-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

LARRY STOCKSTILL - 11^th FEB ( Fri - Evening )

ALIGNMENT FOR YOUR ASSIGNMENT

Running Your Race – 2 Tim 4

Ephesians 2:10 “ For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them. “

- There is a lane with your name

- The question is are you qualify to run this race

1 Cor 9

- Think about your lane, your calling, your destiny

- People talk about calling but lets speak about character, your discipleship.

- Lets focus on CHARACTER

- The anointing of God is where the Holy Spirit takes you to the point of being a VESSEL OF HONOR.

- “ WE ARE HIS WORKMANSHIP “: God made you as a vessel of honor..

- “ God prepared before hand: You are made before the world began

- Destiny is God’s will and plan for your life. Eg. Queen Esther

- God has a timetable.

- Your time is always ready but MY time has not yet come.

- You can relax for your destiny; NO ONE can stop your destiny EXCEPT yourself.

It was his discipleship that qualifies Joseph to be in that position of being in the King’s kingdom.

MOSES – Have 3 stages of life

1 Stage was a period of meekness for the 1^st 40 years.

2 Stage was a season of brokenness for another 40 years.

3 Stage was a season of boldness for the last 40 years.

Destiny and Discipleship have to go together if not you will seat on the sideline.

JACOB – He was trying to be no. 1. He took Esau’s birthright and stole his blessings. Jacob fled to Laban.

Everyone have a LABAN in our life, someone who is smarter than us, so sharp.

- God have a LABAN for you.

Jacob deceived his father in a TENT and LABAN deceived Jacob in his TENT.

- God allowed Jacob to think that Esau is coming to kill him because Jacob is changing in character.

- Jacob wrestled with God. There is someone BIGGER than you.

- Let the HOLY SPIRIT deal with your character, put you in alignment.

- God has a plan for your life!

The cross is God’s alignment. It’s a place where I die to my plans and ambition.

RED RIVER – The Blood of Jesus

If you just plunge into the Red River

Larry Stockstill " Remnant " Meeting Day 2 Morning session

2011-02-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

LARRY STOCKSTILL - 11^th FEB ( Fri - Morning )

Isaiah 60:22 – A word for all of us given by Larry Stockstill’s wife

FAMILY

Psalm 128:3 “ Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine in the very heart of your house, Your children like olive plants round about your table. “

Marriage is a school of character.

- Principles of family :

1) Equality – The secret to great marriage is equality. It means I ‘m gona treat my spouse as equal. No one in the family is bigger or better. We serve one another. In the Christian family, Jesus is the head.

2) Diversity – Everyone have a different role in the family. Jesus came to earth became equal with men to redeem men.

- 1 Cor 11:3

3) Intimacy – The ability to open my life and be real. Open ourselves and be open to one another more and more. Wife is the key of the family.

- How to have a happy wife in the ministry :

- Divorce rate in church is equivalent to divorce rate in the world

1) Financial Security - Inside a woman is a build-in insecurity.

- In Genesis “ Your desire will be your husband. “

- A wife will flourish if they can sense finance security.

- God gave a man that kind of security. Security attracts a woman to a man.

2) Loneliness

- When she no longer feel lonely

- Providing companionship

- A woman is longing to talk about intellectual things after working a whole day at home. She wants to talk about her dreams.

- Woman longing for fellowship

3) Routine

- Lacking in routine

- Try to establish a routine of life is a challenge but it is very important to your wife.

- Routine is the secret of happiness to a woman.

- Do not let anything disrupt her stable routine.

4) Communication Issues

- A wife feels really happy when she can say what she wants to say.

- If your life is wrong and your wife says that, don’t get defensive.

5) Honor

- 1 Peter 3:7 “ Husbands, like wise dwell with them with understanding, giving honor to the wife, as a weaker vessels

- God gave man double strength usually so that you can carry her.

- Honoring means you notice where she is at all times. You don’t let her get lost in a crowd. You want her to feel comfortable at all situations.

6) TRUST

- Wife gets happy when they feel the trust

- A woman can feel very insecure when all the information she have do not add up.

- In order to have a feeling of trust, man should make every effort to let his wife know his whereabouts. Total accountability

- The best defense is a good offence

- Be extremely careful

7) Protected

- Women needs to feel protected

- Ruth 3 : When she went into Boaz and cover his feet.

- Women greatest need, is a man in her life who runs the show, she wanted a husband who will protect her.

- She needs a man to cover her

- She wants somebody who is in-charge

- “ I am not gona let anybody upset my flower “ – Larry Stockstill

2^nd Session

Ephesians 6:4 “ And you, fathers, do not provoke your children to wrath, but bring them up in the training and admonition of the Lord. “

85% among youth in US comes from fatherless

Malachi 4:6

- Good parenting is treating children well and training them well.

- Never let them associate anger with discipline. Treat a child the way you will treat Jesus.

What builds a stable child :

1) Attention – Kids need attention.

- Many unfathered kids need a father.

- You can be a father to a child who is fatherless.

- Attention is time.

- Get involved with the people your kids are involved with.

2) Affection

- Kids need affirmation

- Youth are in life of crime or anger because they lack affirmation.

- Being present at their big day. There are places where he/she is looking for just one face….DADDY.

- Don’t get caught up with your ministry and lose your family.

3) Discipline

- A child that’s not discipline feels no sense of security

· Create Boundaries – You have the leverage. If the child does not experience consequences they will never build character. You don’t have to get upset to set boundaries., in fact when you get upset you lost your authority. Without consequences, either you control your child, if not one day the police will.

· Fairness – You have to be sure you establish fairness.

· Habits – Devotions, bible reading, church attendance etc. Teach your children to work. Never give them money and no work.

· Punctuality – Be on time, be on the bed at a certain time.

· Respect

· Time and Money Management – Manage their time and money

· Manners – Table manners

Larry Stockstill " Remnant " Meeting 1

2011-02-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

For the next few postings, i will put up all the notes i've took for these past days...May it bless anyone who gets to read it..God Bless :D

LARRY STOCKSTILL - 10^th FEB ( Thurs )

Isaiah 11:2 – “ The Spirit of the LORD shall rest upon Him, The Spirit of wisdom and understanding, The Spirit of counsel and might, The Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD. “

PRAYER ( Tabernacle ) :

- Brazen Altar speaks of the cross. To spend time thanking the Lord on each wounds.

- Laval speaks of relationship with the Father

- Candle stick ( Center Shaft ) speaks of intimacy

1) Spirit of the Lord is INTIMACY

Prayer : “ Lord Jesus, I want to know you more…. “

Know the Lord in His Purity

John 4 – “ In Spirit and in Truth

WORSHIP comes from HUMILITY and Intimacy is Self- Disclosure

Spirit of the Lord only comes upon in HUMILITY.

EG. Illustration of the glove and the hand ( Holy Spirit )

PRIDE is the No.1 enemy of the Holy Spirit

2) Spirit of Wisdom is ORDER

Wisdom is the ability to put things in ORDER / The ability to bring ORDER

1 Cor 14 – God is not the author of CONFUSION

DEACONS – To select men who is full of the Spirit and Wisdom and deacons maintain ORDER

3) Spirit of Understanding is the CLARITY of what to do.

Understanding has to do with your future. The men of Issachar have understanding.

Confusion = Blind dog in a meat house

People know God has a plan for them, a calling but they dun know how to find them.

SOLUTION : PRAYER & FASTING

4) Spirit of Counsel is the ability to MAKE RIGHT DECISIONS

Inward Witness

- One bad decision can alter the course of your life and one GOOD decision can bring you out of a life time of BAD decision.

5) Spirit of Might – The POWER, FIRE & ENERGY

- Joy of the Lord is our strength

- Dancing before the Lord

- Release the power of God

- Release the Joy of the Lord

6) Spirit of Knowledge has to do with “ KNOW HOW “

Gives you ability to do things you don’t know how to do

Christians can walk in SUPERNATURAL KNOWLEDGE

EG. :

Gal : “ When I go to heaven I will ask Jonah if he is swallowed by a whale “

Teacher : “ What if Jonah is in hell “

Gal : “ Then you can ask him “

7) Fear of the Lord will give you SPIRIT OF INTEGRITY

Story of Ananias – “Great fear came upon all people”

If I only have 1 week...

2011-02-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

If I have only 1 week to live....I hope :

1) My mum..dad..bro and auntie will receive salvation in Christ..so that i can really say " Me and my house..WE WILL SERVE THE LORD ! " =)

2) I want to tell all my friends how much they mean to me and how much God really love them..If i can share when i'm alive then i pray that God will show His love to them in His time.

3) I want to complete the final task that God wants me to do and be at the place He wants me to be during the 1 week.

4) I want to use whatever i have to bless whoever that God wants me to bless...

Well...i guess...thats all that will keep me busy for the week...LOL... but i'm serious about the above mentioned. :D

GOD LOVES EVERYONE ! Even if you don't live very long...just the thought that you are still alive, breathing every morning...while some others are struggling to be alive....for you to be able to read this...God has expresses His faithfulness...mercy and love for you... :)

My Friends

2011-02-02T11:03:00.001+08:00

Was out with 2 of close frens from Sec Sch. It was one of the rare chance which 3 of us went out together after so many years...as one migrated to UK and the other to Melbourne.

One of the funny conversation we had last night was when A said to me , " Ehh...why do you always have different group of frens whom you always hang out or are close with ? Your close frens always change...haha... " Then she went on to joke by saying , " Irene...we are so fortunate that after so many years we are still in her list...hahahaha... " We all laughed... :)

I started to share a little by telling them, that God really put different people in my life at different period...i guessed having friendship with different people have brought about different experiences in my life which i learn from. Hanging around different friends also bring about a portion of who i am now...I think...hahaha... Like the 2 of them, we know the characteristic of one another so well that we know how to work around the flaw or flaws of one another. The mean jokes we crack on one another comes with the limit knowing how much we can take it. I guessed all these understanding comes bcos we learn to spend time to know each other during our sch days and even after we graduate.

It is also really true, in different point of my life , I have different group of close frens whom we see each other very frequently and we walked each other through our joy..sadness and disappointments. I believe building relationship with a fren needs effort on both end, we make an effort to spend time , to chat and friends whom i speak with no boundaries are friends whom i know who do not judge me for who i am but yet will still correct me when i am wrong. :)

In proverbs, " As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend. " Of course in my recent years coming back to the Lord....I really enjoy hanging out with friends whom we build and sharpen one another in Christ and to grow together, encourage one another even learning from one another. I know eventually I become the people who i spend my majority of time with.. " He who walk with the wise grow wise.. " :)

I really don't have one BEST FRIEND...bcos everyone whom i have hung out with...be it past or current...everyone contributes to my life and I am very thankful to every friend whom God placed in my life. I really believe at different point or stages of my life....these friends are people God have placed to accomplish something in me in that season...to teach me and to bring me nearer to the very purpose He have planned for me. I love everyone of YOU ! Thanks for being understanding and patient with me even when i am not... :)

1 Samuel 2

2011-01-28T11:30:00.001+08:00

I am starting to read 1 Samuel...yesterday i was reading chapter 2 and verse 35 caught my eye.

" Then I will raise up for Myself a faithful priest who shall do according to what is in My heart and in My mind. I will build him a sure house, and he shall walk before My anointed forever. "

I prayed that i will be the FAITHFUL one who will do according to what is in God's heart and mind.

As i read the story of Eli, he was the one who guided and taught Samuel to listen and respond to the Lord but he did not end well bcos of his 2 sons. God raised Samuel to replace Eli as he compromised the sins of his 2 sons. God do not take sins lightly as He is holy and righteous.

My mum..

2011-01-26T11:51:00.000+08:00

On Friday nite.. 14th Jan...i went to HK cafe with Haz n Thess for a cup of barley after usual Friday service. I called my dad to ask what time would he be back..he then told me my mum fell at Swiss Club and was sent to TTSH A&E.

I couldn't make out how i was feeling there and then...i figured i want to keep calm while others are panicking. I then told my dad to call me once he arrived at the hospital and let me know how she was.. I continued to pray in my heart while i was drinking my barley...but i realized i was worried within me...i kinda spaced out alittle...i knew i wasn't really paying attention on the table..

Anyway, after awhile i went down to TTSH with my bro. Haz texted and said she just prayed for her and my family...I really appreciate that even just a prayer at this time...i called Jingx and spoke to her...i guessed i need to talk to someone...then she prayed for me. I am grateful to having just a few friends who prayed for my mum during that moment. Thank God for frens that helped me keep my eyes on Him constantly.. =)

Thank God...nothing serious...just had bruises at the under eye area on the left...her left face was swollen bcos she hit her nose. I know God is watching over her...I know God loves me and love my family....He will protect my family...

I think after she fell and having to watch how frustrated she feels over this unknown illness of hers...it really breaks my heart...for a couple of days...i was abit down and not concentrating well...I can only keep praying but I know God will heal her completely ! =)

Many Thanks to everyone who prayed for me and my family. Deeply appreciated..love you all ! =)

Year 2011

2011-01-05T17:20:00.002+08:00

Was recalling what was the best thing that happened in year 2010 with J when we went to this awesome place, WILD HONEY for a marvelous breakfast on the 1st day of 2011. I think the best thing for me last year was attending SOL. Since then, many things have changed..almost in every aspect including vision being expanded...new found Filipino frens in church... =)

Its 5th of Jan now...what do i expect from 2011? I think I want to continue growing in the knowledge of God...i want to continue to fix my eyes upon Him...I definitely want to get a new job..but at the same time i believe in timing. As usual, i want to be at the right place, at the right time doing the very thing God wants me to...thats all i want.

Have been watching a series of this DVD on Intercessor, i want to even grow in this very area of Intercession. I do not know if i'm called to be an intercessor but i know i can always feel God's anointing whenever i pray.

Last nite, leaders of FiLCS watched the 1st DVD of it...after that we went into a time of praying...goodness.. The presence of the Lord is soooo strong...i felt convicted in the area of giving up in prayer for a few frens... How can we come before our Holy God to intercede for people when our own life or heart is not right with Him?

I want a breakthru in my walk with the Lord...if 2010 is an awesome break thru with God...i want more this year !! =) The 1st thing i want to do for the new year is to get back into the momentum of attending Early Morning Prayer meeting.. :p

Waiting for support from family...

2010-12-23T14:59:00.005+08:00

I know every friends are super supportive in the work i am doing in church...when they know that i am travelling to Philippines for mission...some even said they wished to come along when theres a chance. Thanks peeps ! I love you all ! =)

I cannot help but wonder sometimes why isn't my family as supportive as my friends...? I do not ask them to pay for my trip neither do i ask them to come along with me. I wish they can keep their comments to themselves sometimes...one said i'm busybody and one said i shouldn't care so much about others as all i have to do is care about myself !? I'm throughly appalled by this statement. I know as parent, all you want is the best for your OWN child but what is going to happen to all these people and children who only gets to eat a meal a day if everyone only care abt THEMSELVES !?

Sometimes...when i saw my friends who have parents that fully support what they are doing for the Lord...i really envy them. I think to myself...if only my parents are like that...I wish i am the only one left in the family sometimes so that no one will care about what i'm doing or at least i won't hear them say nasty things anymore......ok...alright.....sorry....i know thats a nasty thought.

I know God put me in this family for a reason...for a purpose...sometimes i feel sooo alone being the only christian at home bcos nobody understand !?

I don't like to stay home....so as to avoid quarrels...to avoid hearing things which don't sound very pleasant...I rather go out alone even if all my friends are busy. I just don't like to stay at home bcos its not the best place where peace can be felt....Over the years, I stopped talking back to them even when they say the wierdest thing at home...i tried my best to avoid making sarcastic remarks...I do my best to please them by abiding in most of their requests....what else do they want from me !? Pls don't push it too far...sometimes i feel like bursting already...what i do is to just walk out and take a DEEEEEP BREATH.... I need sooooooooo much grace at home....sighhh.....

Lord...I pray for the salvation of my family...I pray that they will start to see the things you have been doing in my life and even for my family. I know there is a timing for everything..I commit my family into Your hands and let thy will be done...In the name of Jesus...Amen...

Life Mission...Life Vision....

2010-12-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

Came back on Monday from Philippines... =) Since 6mths ago...i finally stepped on the ground of Philippines for my 2nd time. Its a different feeling this time...the last time i went...i had a glimpse of what i like to do....This time round...the whole time i was busy doing things...like Martha...I don't have time for " Mary moments "....Most team members on this trip brought back something from this trip..be it a thought or an experience. So what did i brought home this time...?

I'm not sure...i felt at most time...i was busy doing things....just doing...can't feel or did not feel anything..at least up til now. I need to spend some time...to pray and to seek the Lord. On this mission trip...i was in expectancy with what God is going to do or show me....but i don't seem to hear or see anything just yet....shall continue to pray abt it.. =)

What i got to see on this trip was more about people in the team....I got to see different people with different characteristic...who work differently and react differently to different things. God is really amazing...how does He handle us...?? I'll get frustrated if i have to be that MULTI-TASK and respond differently to that many people...So tiring....*pant*...How great is our God... =) Hmm...wait a min...maybe that was what He is showing and teaching me ! =) hahaha...gosh...what took me so long to think about this !?

Time for a chat with the Lord now... ;)

Re-Evaluate

2010-12-03T13:06:00.000+08:00

I drove into a barrier arm on Monday and yesterday i scratched abit by the side of the car while turning up to the carpark. Whats wrong with me??? Perhaps...I lost my concentration since Monday...sighhhh.....

I'm at this place whereby i'm thinking about many things...ever since H asked me with regards to the LIFE MISSION...i started to re-evaluate my thoughts...as friends...maybe i have certain expectation of her thinking she should know me better by now...but then again...why did i assume...? I took things for granted.....but never mind...i'm learning... =)

Anyway...i've wrote down all that i can to explain myself...though now i'm at this.. " whats gona happen next " kinda stage....but in all things...i know God is in control.. =)

Leaving for KL in a few hrs time tonite...its wierd not to see the rest of my filipino frens for a weekend..cos i haven't been missing weekend since June...and now when they all miss me...i'm starting to miss them too... :( I think its also good to getaway for a day or two...i wana take some time to pray and seek the Lord for the year to come as well....I'm bringing the Lord with me to KL...haha... =) Oh Lord~~ You Never Let Go~ ~

Process of learning humility

2010-11-26T02:36:00.002+08:00

I've been reading a lot on humility. Currently i'm reading a book randomly picked up by Aileen when we were at the book counter. She took the book up....flipped a few pages and then she saw " Philippines" then she said.." hey..this book mentioned about Philippines....i think its for you.." I went.." Philippines? Really...let me see...." I did not know the book title while browsing...when i sort of like reading it and decided to buy it...i was amazed that its a book titled " HUMILITY" which is a subject i love to read. =) I wrote on FB before...i realised why i love the subject...its merely becos i realized how much i lack of it and how much i want to walk in it. ;)

Well...lately...i felt people kept misinterpreting everything i said or what i meant..I cannot blame them...bcos i din tell them the whole story...therefore when facts are not known...how can i blame the person from judging me? So...maybe its my fault for not explaining? But i find it troublesome and thinking...in the first place...Did i not use the right words? Did i REALLY said something wrong..? I prayed about it...i've decided to not explain myself so much... * sob *

Some said its part of spiritual growth...I duno...if it is..I thank God for it...I pray He will give me grace and wisdom to handle the situation...help me overcome anything that He want me to...I will still do my work as how i should and would...I'm weary...weary from explaining....weary from hearing continuous hurting remarks made which i really felt my character being doubt....I must admit...the remarks hurt...

" We must accept misunderstandings only if we are willing to work in the best interests of those who misunderstand us. "

Well...i have the best interest at heart...so i shall just keep on working....sigh.....i'm really struggling with this....Lord..I hope You will help me with this....

Lord...whatever will be..will be...let thy will be done...Help me to lay down all SELF or Pride if there is.....teach me to walk in Your ways and not mine...Help me to put on the mind of Christ....In Jesus Name...Amen....

Persistent Prayer

2010-11-06T16:13:00.003+08:00

I was reading this article from " Charisma " magazine which speaks about not giving up in prayer.

" Then Jesus told His disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up" ( Luke 18:1)

For me, I make it a point to talk to God every morning and at all times when i'm walking alone...going somewhere...i love to pray and talk to God. It makes me happy to talk to Him. =)

In the article mentioned, it wrote, " Perhaps you are seeking God, and someone, perhaps a person whom you greatly respect, has persuaded you to give up. Perhaps you have prayed about something, and because God didn't answer you within a short time you gave up. Have you ever wondered what would have happened if you had held on? "

I'm sure all christians believe in prayer but how persistent we are in prayer is a question that came to me when i was reading the article. Do we give up easily? Do we give up in prayer if the outcome is different from what you expect God to do?

In Acts 10, it speaks about the result of persistent prayer.

“There was a certain man in Caesarea called Cornelius, a centurion of the band called the Italian band. A devout man, and one that feared God with all his house, which gave much alms to the people, and prayed to God always" (Acts 10:1-2).

Cornelius is a man of devoted heart to God who prayed to Him always and with actions, he gave alms to the poor. He was so determined to see his Gentile household come to the fullness of God that he fast and prayed ALWAYS. Then thru Peter's preaching to his household, God pour out His spirit on the Cornelius's household.

Many times, God might not answer our prayers immediately. He might seem quiet but little do we know, He is already in the midst of speaking or answering us. The question is, are we persistent in our prayers? Are we relentless when it comes to prayers? How persistent we are in prayer speaks about how much we desire to see our prayer come to pass...it takes perseverance and faith in the Lord. I truly believe and have experienced the power of prayers...especially collective/corporate prayers many times. =)

GOD SPEAKS IN DIFFERENT WAYS AS WE GROW IN MATURITY

I remembered there was a period in my life...i think it was last year...whenever and whatever i prayed, God never fail to speak to me thru His words and also thru people. It always makes me happy and encouraged whenever He speaks. =)

Then there comes the time when i was in bible school, i realized there was a change in the way God speaks to me. He do not answer me all the time, He do not speak in he same way as how he did in the past. He will flash verses in my mind...give me a song in the morning and via words given to me by leaders in church.

Even right now, i'm praying about the next job i am thinking of doing...God did not answer a specific yes or no...but i will still continue to lift it up in prayers! =)

If i've known earlier....If only...if only....

2010-10-29T19:39:00.001+08:00

I sent my dad to the airport earlier this morning at 6am....hes taking Air Asia and we din noe the airline is located at Terminal one...so we went to the budget terminal first and then made a big turn to go to Terminal one....If only I've known earlier i would be at Terminal 1....

Then when we went to Terminal 1....theres a traffic jam at the flyover of the Departure terminal...Thank God its a moving traffic...If I've known earlier...I would have insisted to leave house earlier...

Then after sending my dad...it was near 7am already...i was supposed to pick up H..SY n B at 730am to drive them to attend J's cremation. I told H last nite and offered to fetch her and the rest since the timing was just nice n abt time anyway... I reached H's hse area abt 7am...since i still have half an hr...i decided to find a lot at the car park n take a little nap to wait for her text msg or call...Little did i know that my hp shut down on its own...!! When i woke up..i was horrified...its 750am !!! I have to take out the hp battery...then restart the fone to ON it again...i felt sooooooo bad that i offered them a lift but FAILED to do it....i nearly wanted to cry already....cos i felt REALLLLYYY Bad....Thank God they got there in time....if not i might juz kill myself....If I've known earlier that my fone have e tendency to shut on its own....i wld have text H to let her know i'm dwnstairs...If i've known earlier...this wld not have happened.....If i've known earlier...If only...if only.....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............sob sob.... =(

One moment in history...

2010-10-25T15:18:00.001+08:00

Phew..........the days when my dear fren was not around was quite exciting actually i must say..hahaha... :p So many FIRST TIME in my life.... :p A few of us here were constantly waiting for updates from her in Philippines with regards to her dad's improvement in health and at the same time we were thinking of ways to help her gather financial help as the total medical fees liable mount up to quite an enormous amount... This is the First time I ever remit any money for someone not even for myself and i actually went 2 times i think...? coolness ! ;)

This was the first time EVER in my entire life that i took out my own sum of savings for a fren.....the weirdest thing was...it din took me very long to consider taking the $ out of my bank to help her... =) Its like...ok...u need it...u can have it kinda tng..? i never thought i would take dat kinda amount of $ out of my bank dat easily..hahaha! After dat...i can't help laughing...bcos i can imagined myself standing in front of the atm and looking at the balance then think...." gosh...its not a dream !? " Maybe to contribute a sum of $ to a friend in need might seem simple or natural to many people....but this is NOT simple neither NATURAL to me....hahaha!

She wrote a card for everyone who have contributed in any help to her during this tough time she faced and i wana laminate this card she wrote to me...not just becos its a dear fren who wrote it or its bcos she specially designed the card but its bcos i wana remember this time in HISTORY of my life which this thing happened to a friend and God gave me this chance to stand with her and also help her by doing this "wierd" thing...be it knowingly or unknowingly....hahaha...Praise e Lord ! =)

Honestly, I am very happy to be able to lend a helping hand to her....a fren asked me..." why do you want to this? Like take out so much $...which i will NEVER think you will ever do..." I just replied.... " Well...bcos she is one person who sorta had some influence in my life and for the things i've learnt from her...all these...$ cannot buy...I thank God for having her ard as a great company to hangout and I'm REALLY thankful to God for putting her in my life...which after knowing her...I tink thats where the new season of my life started.... =) Somehow....this has become a testimony which i can share with good friends who know me for donkey years and who know how stingy...selfish i am last time...! ;) To God be the glory ! =)

Running with a vision

2010-10-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

Habbakuk 2:2-3 " Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry. "

Not many people run the race with a vision perhaps one of the possible reason is God have not shown them their “ calling “ or rather they do not know who and what God wants them to be.

After a few years of waiting upon the Lord…there are qns I raised to the Lord during the period :

1) Are you sure this is the place you want me to be?

-I really don’t like what I am doing, how would you put me at a place where I feel so useless and under utilize???

-Where am I in Your divine...perfect plan? I don't seem to be heading anywhere...

Here is a secret i did not share with anyone...There was this period in my life where i simply got irritated whenever someone ask me " Do you know your calling that God has for you? " I duno if i was mocking the Lord or laughing at myself sometimes whenever someone asked me that qns. I will reply, " huh? What is that? Calling?? By phone ?? " then i'll laughed...in my heart i felt a little frustrated... :p Well...that was the past....what i did each time is i prayed...i cried and kept telling the Lord...." i know You have a plan for me...i din wana react the way i did...but i can't help it...Help me and teach me to wait upon You Lord.. " This became a daily prayer to me during those days.

The funniest thing is you will start to pray and answer your own qns someday somehow. In fact, deep within, the Holy spirit have already given us the answer sometimes, knowing we just have to wait for God's perfect time for His perfect plan...we just don’t want to face it and we want God to confirm to us about 10 times before we say…” oh well…you say it…I'll do it…" We will say this with much reluctance.. :p

Joseph was given a divine dream in his earlier days but God still brought him thru a series of " unfortunate events " to aid him to grow into maturity. He had to go thru all these in order to be equipped and be prepared before he is ready take on the big tasks given to him from the Lord.

Eliezer was a great example of patience and persistence. We saw his patience in choosing the right woman by making a detailed plan. He didn't make a snap judgment. He wasn't impulsive. The Bible says in Genesis 24:21 (NIV), "Without saying a word, [he] watched her closely to learn whether or not the Lord had made his journey succeed.

Before I received a clear confirmation and direction from God recently through Presbytery, I too have times when i felt down, I was frustrated with mundane things i was doing...etc..Yet even now, as I hold fast to His promises and this direction He spoke to me about, I know it is not for me to dash and run ahead of His timing.I believe God is still in the midst of molding me, training me, equipping me before I am able to take up all the tasks He is going to bestow upon me. We need to learn to wait upon the Lord with great persistence and patience...as its a stage I believe we will often encounter especially when God is bringing us through transition period in different seasons of our life. I'm still learning and i pray in all humility that God will continue to humble me and teach me to walk in His ways and His time with great patience and persistence.

Revelation 21:5

2010-10-18T16:57:00.000+08:00

Since last Friday...i have been watching "Passion Of Christ " on Youtube....I can't watched some of the scenes...i'm sure many like me who can't watched the bloody scenes...etc. There is one particular scene which i kept recalling what was being said...it was Jesus in the movie..as He was walking n carrying the cross and fell under the weight of the cross..then His mother came running towards Him...He said to her " See that I will make all things new.... "

I kept thinking of this sentence for the last few days ever since i heard it....and now the sentence is still running in my mind....hmmm.....

Psalm 51

2010-10-13T11:34:00.000+08:00

I was listening to the song " Whiter than snow " this morning in my room as i comb my hair to get ready for work. After a min, i decided to read a scripture before i step out of the house....so i was just thinking and asking the Lord.. " Hmm...what should i read? " Then i felt the Lord says, " Psalm 51 "...just when i flipped the bible to Psalm 51, I saw on verse 7 which wrote " wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. "

This is the exact title of the song i was listening to....! Its sooo fun to hear from the Lord early in the morning...~! =) I want to practice hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit more....I shall do this every morning ! =)

Thank You Lord ! Such joy to be able to hear from You every morning ! =)

What are you doing with the vision God gave you?

2010-10-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

Pst Yang spoke abt the Coming of the Last days today during service..He mentioned God always preserved the righteous. When the times come, will i be doing what God has called me to do? What will i be doing then? I kept thinking abt this whenever such topic arises...I think its a question which we should constantly remind ourselves...what do we do with the vision that God give us...R u sitting on it? Doing it? Or..still "thinking" abt it???

I'm really not trying to rush into things...if anyone can understand..? After the given word from the Lord thru presbytery...I've already know my direction...i want to do something abt it...i no longer wana sit and wait for things to happen...

I'm committing every step i take to the Lord...In all I do...I honor You Lord... =)

Decision to prioritize

2010-10-10T17:07:00.000+08:00

Have been thinking about this for sometime...I know I've found what i really love to do and want to do...I am praying to re-adjust my ministries.

Looking back..ever since i've come back to church, i have been serving in 2 ministries, FW and VG. I know i really did grow alot and benefit alot from VG. I really felt this is the time to move on...I want to stay focus on what i really felt to do...in the year to come...i want to help PH more...help her with more stuffs if i could and I would... ( hahaha...trying to rhyme here.. :p )

Finally, i have a chance to speak to F today....i am so happy that she didn't object or stop me...basically...I am so happy to know she understands where i'm coming from..why i wana re-adjust my ministries..juz so that i can focus on what i want to do.. =) Yeah !! Praise the Lord ! =)

Hmm...now...the next step is to let my ministry leaders know...God...i need Your wisdom...grace and perfect timing !!!

Unproductive

2010-10-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

Well...i was just telling a friend that while i was in a cab..i think to myself " Gosh...how now? I have been so unproductive for 3yrs already...other than the time i spent in SOL...." Just as i was saying...then here comes evening when i realised i lost my car key...so i have to head down to Ubi to duplicate one...i paid $200 for that...the next thing i found out after my key was done....the battery of my car R.I.P (DIED)...yes.......it DIED !

I then have to call they garage guy to head down to UBI to change my battery if not i can't even drive it away.....sigh.............Now, this evening i have been so productive !! Btw....i've paid paid another $180 for the battery....

nvm nvm....Blessed Be the Lord~~ God ~~ ALMIGHTY ~~~~~~haha.. =)

Daily Prayer

2010-10-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

I want to make this my daily prayer.. =)

" Lord, I want to give myself up. I am not strong enough to love You and walk with You on my own.

I can't do it, and I need You. I need You deeply and desperately. I believe You are worth it, that

You are better than anything else I could have in this life or the next. I want You. And when I don't, I

want to want You. Be all in me. Take all of me. Have Your way with me. " - Crazy Love by Francis Chan

Praying with victory in mind

2010-10-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

Was chatting with a fren one day...in regards to a daughter of one of our pastor in church, this little girl has cancer and the family were told recently by the doctor to prepare for at least 3weeks-3mths life left for her.....This is indeed a piece of sad and bad news to us all...

My fren was just sharing how sad this is....suddenly...i just have this thought which i told her as well..... I really feel that if we as intercessors wants to pray and contend for victory and believe in complete healing for the little girl...lets pray with a spirit of victory and not a spirit of despair! This is just not the way to fight the many battles we faced or will face daily...Church are mobilizing every one to pray for her....lets keep our eyes on our Sovereign God...The God whom we believe and trust that He will only give us the best. We intercede with victory in mind....not to be an army of God who has half the mind of losing the battle...lets Battle this with FAITH...and only His supernatural Faith alone!

Father... i truly believe Your hands are upon J and her family..We want to pray for victory bcos we are more than conquerors in You... ! We are Your children whom You have given us all authority and power by Your holy spirit. I pray and ask for complete healing upon J...Lord...let us witness Your healing power from this....I ask that You pour out Your abundance grace, love and strength to PS and PT. We give You all the glory, praises in all that You've and will be doing in this family and J. Help us increase our faith and love for You even more.. In Jesus Name....Amen....

Psalms 90:14

2010-10-02T14:14:00.000+08:00

" Satisfy us in the morning with Your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. "

We tend to wake up with different emotions on different days...at least thats me....If my dad wake me up before my intended time...it frustrates me...BUT....if i wake up with the Lord in mind....i really am in a better mood than usual... ;)

Let this verse be my daily morning prayer and may His love satisfy me no matter which side of the bed I wake up on... :p Thank you Lord..Your praises shall always be on my lips..I pray...Amen.... ;)

Graduation Night 23rd Sep 2010

2010-09-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

23rd Sep 2010, my first graduation in my entire life...haha...Anyway...i enjoyed the rehearsal time...playing with my schmates..taking loads of photos...! I'll miss them and class awfully...

I'm soo happy my cell grp came..Ren and Dan came...only dat J never come...( haha...okok...she did tell me she might not be able to come lah...and she has compensated by treating me to a meal...I'll forgive her...haha.. ) At the end of the event...our leaders and pastors came to pray for us...double..triple blessings...! Woohoo! I'm very happy that H prayed for me as well...its the first time dat woman pray for me...haha.. =)

Whats next aft SOL? Well...now i really do have clarity of direction or calling...I just know that all i have to do is to take one step at a time and keep doing what i've been doing....keep growing and i know the Lord will lead me to where He want me to be... =)

I tink last Sunday..during service....the Lord showed me a vision...I saw His footsteps and I saw myself walking on His footsteps and i felt the Lord saying this to me.. " Follow My footsteps and walk with Me...one step at a time... " All i can say is " Yes Lord...i will...guide my every steps Lord... " =) I was so touched by what i saw and what the Lord said....i felt sooo encouraged... =)

Thank you Lord for the vision and the wonderful graduation night ! I love You more and more each day...! =) How can i stop loving You !!?? hahaha....

Thanks for everyone who came to the graduation and those who prayed for me...i really love and appreciate everyone of you...! =)

Presbytery SOL 2010

2010-09-23T13:57:00.001+08:00

Finally...the time where many of my classmates and myself awaits for a word from the Lord has arrived.. =)

My grp, Aunty R, RM, L , JF and MB...the pastors who prayed for us were Pst C and Pst D.B. I heard from couple of classmates that Pst D.B flows in the area of prophetic and is very sharp. Well...i duno...to me..i was like... "ok..watever n whoever..Here i am Lord...You know i'm waiting for Your answer Lord...speak to me during this time... " I fast for a meal and prayed over the past 3 days...preparing myself for this moment...and....................THANK YOU LORD ! ;)

There were many thoughts and things which were confirmed by what were being prophesied over me by both pastors. Whatever i was asking of the Lord...God spoke to confirm it. I m really happy...not only bcos of the big and amazing things Hes preparing me..but more than anything...i'm very happy that i am right at where He want me to be and doing what He want me to do !! =)

Guard my heart evermore Lord....Continue to lead and guide me....I ask for more humility...wisdom and I want to grow deeper in You Lord...In Jesus Name...Amen =)

In all I do I honor You

2010-09-20T23:26:00.001+08:00

Philippians 2:12-18

Was frustrated over some issues and things i'm thinking about....after telling a fren everything thats upon my heart.... after she prayed for me...i felt so much better... =) I'm typing this in my car now...as usual...i just wanted to spend some time with the Lord..

I drove to my usual place and carpark...parked my car and myself there to read..meditate and pray...just that today...i get to be prayed for..dats a bonus... =) Really appreciate that fren for being a fren who always guide and speak words of encouragement to me...Thanks! ;)

After we end our conversation on the fone...i continued to pray and worship the Lord in my car....then i felt to just type and wrote this...Its a prayer i prayed to the Lord.... =)

Dear Father...
I want to love all people but do not and cannot please all of them...I Do not want to love God any little BUT just want to LOVE Him and please Him alone with all I have...and that..I know that I can...In Jesus Name...Amen

3years of the memories of God's grace...goodness and faithfulness to me..

2010-09-13T17:05:00.001+08:00

Was talking to a fren last nite...i actually felt that God is constantly testing my response towards the area of giving up or letting go..Last year, God showed me something about myself that seeks to hinder Him from drawing near to me..or i should say....all the while as much as i've been praying to ask Him to take charge of my life...i've been taking charge of my life by my own...It was rather difficult to let go of self just like dat...God was telling me if i want to keep being and having self...then...i won't be able to get ALL OF HIM....I'm still going thru it and am still learning... =)

Last nite...as i was praying in my car after hanging out with frens...I felt God telling me that if i can't even let go of a laptop...how will i be able to endure if He ever wants more than a laptop from me...? Wah...i was sooo...speechless...All i did was take deep breath and continue to pray.....I felt that God is testing my response on this...Did i kept on dwelling on the loss and sulk whole day? Will I let this consume me till i can't even think of anything? Did I let this little thing stop me from praising Him? I duno if i responded well...but i know i want to...yet i dun deny the fact that I AM TRULY SAD abt it....

As i was talking to Oli..she mentioned that this laptop was a laptop that recorded the many memories of how and what God took me through to mould me in these 3 years....I bought this laptop during the week...the month...the year when i went back to Cornerstone 2008.It contained the memories of God's goodness and faithfulness towards me through these 3years....I guess now it REALLY marks a new page and new season of my life...May whoever is holding it be bless by it....

Nothing I desire compares with You~

2010-09-13T10:41:00.001+08:00

Well...I cannot deny the fact that i'm sad over the loss of my Macbook....In fact, no matter how well i wanted to respond...my natural self is very very very very very sad......I know its silly...its just a laptop...not as though someone died or something...but...i am really very sad over the loss of what is in the laptop..

All the pictures and videos i have had with my frens...ALL gone...Its all my loving memories which i accumulated through these 3yrs...My Macbook has served me for 3yrs already...I know its not the end of the world....but.....oh well....

Anyway...today is a new day...i shall rejoice and be glad in it.. =) Its very easy to say let go...but am letting it go bit by bit with the grace of God...I prayed yesterday when the minute i lose it...the first thing that came to my mine..." Lord...you give and take away...My heart will choose to say...Blessed be Your Name.. "

My heart aches for the loss of info in it and also the $$ i have to fork out to buy a new one now...Lord may You provide me financially for my new purchase...In Jesus Name...Amen... :p

Song of the day :

Lord ~~ You Are~~More precious than silver...
Lord~~ You are~ More costly than gold...
Lord~~ You are~More beautiful than diamonds...
Nothing I desire compares with You~~~

End of a Chapter..Start of a New Beginning

2010-09-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it...i've finished SOL...5-6mths went passed just like dat..woah... =)

Being in class...training and equipping myself for God's greater work is one of the best step I took this year...memories of all my classmates and all that happened in class...I will remember them.. =) I told a friend...I made it for SOL becos there weren't any exams to take...but i know the REAL exams are starting the minute i step out of school...

Yesterday was my last day of class in SOL...mixed feelings...I'll miss my classmates for sure...especially Su..Dan..Lael..Mary...ppl i know i won't see them for awhile when they all return to their country. All the fun we had in class...hitting...slapping...teasing...clowning...hahaha....AWESOME ppl ! At the same time...i know greater things have yet to come for all of us...I pray that God will continue to prepare us for the works He will bring us to do or learn..." What's next " is a common qns which i know most of us have in our mind...we do think about it...but we all know our loving Father is in control of it all... =)

I really don't know what is next...but i do not want to think about this becos i trust the One I Love...I ask for greater clarity...sometimes i think to myself...how clear do I want it to be...? ;) hahaha..There are things I know the answer in my heart...I'm keeping it til I.....erm...I duno.....hahahaa.. :p

I'll try to write down in my next entry...what are the things that being in SOL have bring about...be in my progress in my walk with God or character changing...or even people I've met....Recalling all these will definitely make me see how good and faithful my BIG DADDY is ! =)

Gift Of Administration

2010-09-06T01:47:00.001+08:00

I really enjoyed the classes with Pst MRW and his wife thru out the whole of last week. On the last day, he told me, " You have the gift of administration and don't despise it...." He then quote an example of a lady who was the one administrating everything for Pst Derek of Church Of Our Saviour, she is Pst Derek's PA. On Friday, Pst MRW actually prayed for me on this gift and he prayed that i will use this gift to bless someone's ministry.

Though i wasn't sure who that lady is and i only managed to find out after i googled as usual...haha....

Anyway...when Pst MRW first mentioned abt gift of administration to me...i was actually thinking.." Hmm...administrating is a gift !? " I mean...isn't it something dat everyone can do? I din even realized it was mentioned in 1 Cor 12:28...so many times we have been reading this verse...but no one actually elaborate on this gift as our focus is always on ALL other spiritual gifts.

I then really went home..googled AGAIN...and really read up abt this Gift of Administration...i am really curious...what is this gift about and what does a person display out of this gift of administration. I realized...this gift is more than what many people perceived it to be... =) Below is from a website i found that explained what Gift Of Administration is :

Spiritual Gift of Administration Defined
The gift of administration is the God-given ability to give direction and make decisions on behalf of others that result in efficient operation and accomplishment of goals. Administration includes the ability to organize people, things, information, finances, etc. Often the mark of an administrator is the ability to accomplish things in a "fitting and orderly way" (1 Corinthians14:40).
People with the Gift of Administration
Administrators often have a keen eye for detail. They may also possess the natural talents of organization, observing and using details, problem solving, and reasoning.
Administration in Scripture
Jesus organized His ministry by choosing his inner circle of three disciples (Mark 9:2), appointing the twelve (Mark 3:13-14), and sending out the seventy two by two (Luke 10:1). Joseph (Genesis 41:41-57;47:13-26), Jethro (Exodus 18), and Titus (Titus 1:5) all demonstrate the gift of administration.

Now i know...administrating is a GIFT ! hahaha....to me i learnt something new... =) If this is a gift..i really pray that God will help me fully utilise of this gift in watever area He wants me to use it for. =)

Thank you Lord for the " Donkey "

2010-08-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

I really thank God for providing me with a car to drive although i don't own the car...but at least i drive the car most of the time.... =) I treasure the time i have driving alone in the car....even when i am on my way to pick up my frens or on the way to church....i spend all this alone time with the Lord in the car. At times,in the morning or late at night when i'm driving home...i'll just talk to the Lord b saying, " "Lord, here are some things I want to talk with you about today."

The alone time i have with the Lord is really one of the main reason why i really enjoy driving...i dun get tired driving around...cos i have my personal space in this car....maybe i should give a name to this car....maybe i should call it SHABAR...its a hebrew word which means "broken-heart" which you can find in Isaiah 61:1 or Psalm 51:17... =)

Thank You Lord for the "DONKEY" ! =)

Power Salvation !

2010-08-26T19:17:00.002+08:00

Went out for dinner with PH, WH, T and she brought a fren of hers..i shall named her CH who's from Philippines.

To cut long story short...while we were at Robertson Quay for coffee...just before we leave the place..PH suggested we pray for CH as her knee have been hurting for a long period and since shes leaving today...we'll juz pray for her. Without us even knowing...after we prayed for her...she started to share what she felt when we prayed for her....she said she felt a feeling of being "washed" over her 3 times...and then she teared....with dat...WH slowly explained the reason why she cried and all...then she was slowly led to SALVATION ! Yahooooooooooooooooooo.....Praise the Lord !!! =)

I must say...with 2 pastors and most imptly...with the Lord in our midst...NOTHING is too impossible...! Thank God for a saved soul...seriously....the initial intention was just to have dinner...coffee....casual sharing...but God always bring surprises...then again...i guessed at all times...as we follow and obey the leading of the Spirit ...He WILL bring surprises !! =)

Yup....just wana write this down...Before my senior issue (forgetfulness) arise... :p Our God is an awesome indeed...! Our God who knows the condition of our heart even before us... =) Thank You Lord...!

Words given in school

2010-08-25T17:04:00.001+08:00

" I saw you standing in the center...there are....not just 10 people...but hundreds of people...you are ministering to them...i feel the love of God flowing out from you....you have a shepherd's heart...a heart of a servant..." -A.R

Hmm....the part on the love of God was mentioned when Pst Satish prayed for me the other time as well...when A.R prayed for me just now...while i was listening to what she said...i nearly got choke by my own saliva..hahaha! :p So scary...hahahhahaa... :p

I thank God for words released by pastors...lecturers...bros n sisters in SOL....i shall record all of it...but right now...i just want to take one step at a time...Christ the Solid Rock I stand... =)

All the time God is GOOD !

2010-08-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

While i was rushing off from church to attend cell grp...a taxi uncle horn me while i was standing by the road waiting for a cab...I went into the cab and take a deep breath...the taxi uncle started to say " aiyoh.....dun sigh.." I went, " hah? y i cannot sigh?? " He laughed and said, " bcos when u sigh like this and when others hear it..it makes ppl feel heavy hearted..". I then replied, " No lah...i am juz breathing after running out to get a cab lah...God is good all the time and all the time God is good mah...i have nothing to sigh abt lah...hahaha.. " Now this is where we spark off talking more about God...Taxi Uncle said, " the fact dat you said God is good all the time is bcos God is in your heart ! " I went " Amen Amen Amen..hahaha ! "

Uncle went on to tell me that he is not a believer...but he have lots of christian friends...He actually read the bible and have lots of diff bibles at home...I was impressed by this statement he made.. " I told my friends not to tell me so much...bcos i know at the end of the day, its all about your R/S with God! Correct? The God we are talking is all about LOVE rite? When my friends talked to me, i will know about their r/s with God... "

Wow....I'm actually quite impressed by Uncle's knowledge of God and the bible....i started to think...some people can be a christian for the longest time and yet not knowing about the most important thing is REALLY our r/s with God !? I'm quite challenged by him actually....I am learning from a non-believer !?

I believe God is speaking to him constantly...juz dat he have not really experience God...i believed the courage that i had to pray for him wasn't from me..anyway immediately...i told uncle, " ok ah Uncle....i shall pray for u....just want to pray blessings over you... " And so i really did...i'm still wondering where did i get the courage to just pray for him like dat....hahaha....

I told a few friends abt this...i did not tell them this to get a pat on the shoulder juz bcos i prayed for uncle..blah blah blah....but merely sharing my joy...cos it sorta make my day.... =) on top of this...my day has an additional bonus when J shared with me and asked me to pray with her with regards to her cousin....she is praying hard for her cousin n family to come to know the Lord especially when the family is facing a big issue now....Wow...everyone is reaching out to people in diff kinda situations/ at diff places/...GOD IS REALLY GOOD AND GREAT !!! I LOVE YOU LORD ! =)

God is really FAITHFUL

2010-08-20T17:59:00.000+08:00

I meet up with X the other nite for dinner....she was juz sharing with me about the mission trip to China with A. We went to Simpang for dinner...asking her so what is her plans now after quitting. We shared and catch up with one another....after the whole dinner session...i was so encouraged by what God is doing in her life and even in her life together with husband A.

The trip in China was indeed fruitful to her and A. She was also telling me that some of her friends asked her why did she even quit when she just got promoted..her life seems to be moving so well right now yet she quit her job to rest home..they told her she should prove to her ex-stewardess frens that life after flying can just be as good...She told me this , " I was thinking..why should i do tngs to please man..seeking approval from man...I just want to please God... " I went... " alright....amen amen ! " hahaha...wow...i am soooo encouraged by her. i still recalled the last conversation we had when she kept telling me how inadequate she feel to go for a mission trip...now she speaks differently....and i told X...i can see she is really growing in the Lord too... =)

I am sooooooooooo happy to see her and A doing well now...walking with the Lord closely...growing together in the Lord. I mean...she and A are my dear sister n bro whom i came to know from the time when i first come to Cornerstone....we sort of backslided at the same time...come back to the Lord at the same time....now i'm so happy that we are all moving on with the Lord and desire to continue this walk with a greater zeal and passion as compared in the past....what can i say....GOD IS GREAT !!! =)

Thank God for His message to my classmates

2010-08-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

Woah...finally..i finished my last 15mins preaching session today..officially..i have completed my chapel session already...both the worship and preaching part... =) Thru out the time of preparing this message, i knew exactly that i'm on the right track...and after i shared today, a few of my classmates, like M & my fav bro, Dan came over and thank me for the message shared. A lot of them told me it is such a timely message for them, as even during the time of worship, they were still negotiating with the Lord over certain issues and decisions which they knew they have to let go and let God. So i praise God and thank Him for using me to speak this message to them. =)

Even during our prayer session today, many of them prayed about letting go of the branch. There are really many things in our own hearts which we are still battling and wrestling with the Lord. We know very clearly that the Lord spoke to us over certain issues...but...oh well...like wat they said abt Singaporeans....we love to BARGAIN huh? hahaha....

One more thing to jot in this entry, there was a day, a friend was casually saying, " You very nice hor..." Then she told our other friend sitting with us, saying, " hahaha...so you must be her friend ah....she will pick u up..drive u around and she will really treat u very well....take care of you...hahaha " I just smiled...well...like i always say..I m easy-going NOT easy...so to whom i will really go to such extra mile also depends lah...hahaha! :p

I then started to recall and think....again... (realized i don't hate to use my brain as much as i thought...haha ) i think i now see and know why i'm good at taking good care of people...fetching them around...making my friends happy..blah blah blah....Partly, its becos i love to see my friends happy and i picked this art of SERVING from being an artiste manager/chaperon for 6 years when i was still working at my previous record company! Its like i am trained to do this for people...just like in the past, i did this for the artistes that i am in-charge of....i have to make sure they get everything they need for work....making sure they are in good health n well taken care of....Anyway...Thank God for training me for a time such as this...hahahaha... When ppl feel bless...it makes me happy....and i thank God even more bcos i am the one whom is really bless in return. =)

Dear Father, I thank You for using me to bless my dear friends...i thank You even for providing a car for me to use and bless my friends....I thank You for the time i have now...I thank You for even training me up to learn how to serve people...and i just want to thank You for everything and anything that You had and is doing in my life right now....I love You and praise You Lord...In Jesus Most precious Name...Amen =)

The Point Man

2010-08-13T00:56:00.002+08:00

I was juz plain bored and took this test on FB, which character you are in the movie " Inception " and i turn out to be Arther..hahaha... =) This is wat is written about being Arther :

" You are Arther, Cobb's longtime and most trusted collegue. While Cobb is the master planner, you are the organized one, the one who makes sure everything is in its right place. "

I was juz reading and then i started to think...hmm...is this my role when i'm placed in a team or following a leader? Arther is like the right hand man of Cobb in the show...Arther is his most trusted team member in this whole Inception job.

I think when i was working as an artiste manager couple of years ago...i am and have to be the "Arther" of my artiste whenever we travel out of the country for drama/movie and even album promotions. While working with them so much...i have built n established this trust n chemistry with my artistes/singers...I would then have to be that one person who makes sure everything is in its right place. =) Gradually..we became friends or working partners whom we can work so well together...its a great feeling.. =)

I wana partner like dat with God too..I really pray to have such a close r/s with Him that whenever He speaks or even whisper...i can easily catch what He wants to do or say...the faith..trust...chemistry...i can imagine already! haha ! =)

When it comes to serving even for my friends.....i juz do with my whatever ability n availability lor....i might not do it for everybody though :p....Still...I wana Thank you Lord for constantly adding good frens to my life for diff seasons and purposes... =)

Servant's heart

2010-08-06T00:05:00.001+08:00

This week, we have the privilege to have Pastor Aaron Jen to be with us and impart such impt foundation truth to us. Below are 2 things which u've learnt and heard in class....

We seek to serve the Lord with a Servant's Heart even if we go unnoticed....Faithfulness..To be faithful to the very thing that the Lord have called us to do despite whatever hurt or tough time we have to go thru in the process... AMEN AMEN AMEN !! =) Father...in all i do...i honor You...In Jesus Name...

‎" Discipleship is to have a friendship or relationship but with a vision of you. 1st seek TO BE a disciple not to 1st seek FOR a disciple. Discipleship is basically transferring life..a Father's heart who pours out all and one day seeing him/her being more successful than themselves... " - Pst Aaron Jen

The part about discipleship is something which is very new to me but i've learnt so much about it ! I felt very fruitful and filed up this week ! Glory to God ! =)

Words prayed upon me

2010-07-31T02:03:00.002+08:00

Today is the last lesson of "Faith and Miracles" taught by Pastor Satish..He prayed for everyone...below is what he prayed upon me :

It is I that has put springs into your feet and legs. It is I that meets with you at Penial. You’ve learnt to set aside those things that kept you busy bcos you made a decision that Christ is my lover, my bridegroom. My first response you said “ Is my worship to my King, nothing else matter in my life.“ Time and again you said “ The, Christ before me, world behind me, no turning back. Though no one else will go yet I will follow You. Him alone…Him alone” It is I that gave you a desire to intercede, you are a fighter. You will never accept No for an answer til you see the solutions of Jesus in the life of the people.

You have been found faithful in little things therefore I have trusted you with greater things. At a tender age why should such great responsibilities come upon you..because of season like this...I have prepared you to come to get those of your age, to share in such a manner that the love of Christ with compassion is seen in your actions, your actions speaks louderrr..and these are the actions of holiness, righteousness and purity. You have made a decision “my eyes will not see what others enjoy to see, I refuse.” You made a decision that “I will not mix with that company that does not produce anything for the kingdom of God.” You have cut yourself away from those where time wasters in your life and because you gave yourself willingly....let the oil of gladness flow through you…..

Thank You Lord for Your words which was given to me from Pastor Satish....Lord...I know that what ever You have prepared me to do or accomplish in near future...You will provide and equip me...Thank You Lord Jesus....Love You very very much...In Jesus most precious name...Amen... =)

Words by my bros n sisters from SOL

2010-07-28T16:52:00.001+08:00

Just wana write down these words given to me by some of my bros n sisters from school as we had a prayer meeting today in class.

Bro Dan was the first person to give me a word even before the prayer group decided to ask us to pray for one another...He put his hand on my shoulder n then told me " God wants me to tell you that He is expanding your heart..let Him do that...Big things are coming and things will be running very fast...but you must let Him expand your heart so that He can put in more things in it. " =) Thank you Lord...

Sis Pky said " God has already sowed a seed in your heart...you know His plans for you...God wants to assure you that He knows you are listening...Your sensitivity to His voice is so strong that you know you have heard Him...He just wants to assure you that you are listening correctly and don't doubt what you have heard. "

Sis Mg said " God is breaking you bit by bit...bcos by breaking it..out will come all the impurities as He wants to make you pure as gold... "

Bro Hy said " Starting with little responsibilities...God has big plans for you...be faithful even in these little responsibilities... "

I received every word spoken...Thank You Father for loving us...even by giving each of us words to pray for one another... =) I know you have everything planned out for each of us in class...all we need to do is to seek You first and the rest will surely follow...Trust with all our hearts...Thank you Lord....In Jesus Most precious name...Amen...

Being Strong and trying to be strong...

2010-07-24T17:43:00.001+08:00

This entry were drafted last year...juz found it left unpublished :

Yesterday...or rather recent days..i suddenly felt abit emo.. i started to think and told myself...sometimes i dislike being strong...to be someone that have to hold everything together..i dun even noe if it has always been my own expectations towards myself or was it who i am that gave others the idea that I'm always strong..or have to be strong...etc.. I was thinking about many things...but all over the places...

I then decided to email D, who are pretty similar to me in character when it comes to being strong. She really spoke out my feelings man...like what she said : "we are so similar i can practically read whats on ur mind and u probably can do the same for me haha."

I got this from the net...it totally speaks about us..as in me n D.. haha!

Share Your Thoughts As Your Confidence Grows. Friendships deepen when we realize we can trust another person. Once trust is established, we are able to open our hearts to each other, drop our masks, and be real.Many times we struggle with loneliness because we keep our problems and real feelings all bottled up inside. But when we begin to talk about them, they are whittled down to size. Even if a friend has no solution, just talking about a difficulty helps. Knowing that someone else cares and is praying for us often eases our sense of isolation. We need to recognize that pride is often what keeps us from being honest and real, adding to our sense of isolation.

Sometimes our feelings of loneliness indicate a sense of alienation from ourselves. When we are completely honest, we'll admit there are things in our personalities we don't like.There are times when everything seems to be going wrong and we are frustrated and discouraged. When we dwell on our failures and shortcomings, we generate our own loneliness. And this usually leads to more problems.

There are some positive efforts we can make to change our sense of self-alienation

Respond to God's Love.Choose to believe that God loves you, and receive His love. You are His unique creation. He will give your life significance. When you and I accept God's evaluation of us, we won't be controlled by our own feelings of inadequacy and loneliness. We will have confidence in His ability to make us the person He wants us to be. We will be free to be ourselves, controlled by His Holy Spirit. When you know you are loved, it changes the way you feel about yourself.

Jeremiah's isolation and loneliness were eased when he remembered who God is and when he believed His promises. Jesus experienced the worst separation in time and eternity so that we could have the love, fellowship, presence, and guidance of God forever. The psalmist said it well:

Yet I am always with you;

you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heartand my portion forever . . .
As for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;I will tell of all your deeds.
The psalmist's words are as true today as they were then. We may be alone, but we don't have to be lonely all the time.

Knowing God loves us and has control of our lives should give us an assurance that He will meet our needs. He may not give us all we want, but He will give us what we need. If you have been living with a feeling of loneliness and you've put your life on hold until things change, stop it today! Tell the Lord that knowing Him is more important than any other relationship. Tell Him you want to get out of the spiritual playpen and grow to maturity. Emotional immaturity will hinder your spiritual maturity. Your feelings aren't the most important part of you.

Act with Your Will. God gave you a will so you can make choices, and He intends for you to act with your will. He wants you . . .
To choose to obey Him.
To choose to be satisfied with the life He's given you.
To choose to be thankful for the way He has made you.
To choose to accept the love, forgiveness, peace, joy, and fellowship He offers you in the Lord Jesus Christ.

Every blessing of God is wrapped up in Jesus. When we act with our will to receive Him for our salvation, He comes to live within us, bringing with Him all the promises of God. We don't have to look anywhere else to find joy, peace, acceptance, security, and significance. We must simply act with our wills to receive whatever we need from Him. Provision for our every need is offered to us without cost, through the mercy and grace of God. But it isn't really ours until we take it for ourselves—by faith.

A Christian

2010-07-24T17:36:00.001+08:00

A Christian is someone who trusts in the knowledge and the wisdom of God, not in his own abilities. If we have a purpose of our own, it destroys the simplicity and the calm, relaxed pace which should be characteristic of the children of God.

If you really wana serve the Lord..does it matter?

2010-07-24T17:24:00.001+08:00

Last term, me and a classmate were discussing abt serving full time..i guessed..people have been asking him and people have been telling me...we have the same concern...$$... =) I dun think its anything wrong to consider abt it...just take it that i'm just very practical and realistic.

Both of us were just talking and discussing if the pay is the biggest hindrance to most people who are called to serve? I am sure there are more than 2 of us who are called to serve or wants to serve..but if the pay is too low to meet needs...how to serve effectively without worrying?? Some might say that is becos we dun have enough faith...well...so be it. Then we dun have enuff faith...but all this discussions and thoughts was last term..

We've just started our 2nd term of sch...recently...i duno if its the Spirit dat put this thought in me. I was juz thinking...if i'm really AM passionate and is called to serve the Lord...does it really matter how much i'm paid? If God calls us..He will enable us...He will provide for us....all we need is a heart that is WILLING......i duno if i'm makin sense...bcos this dun sound like something that i will say.....
The question is this " IF YOU REALLY WANA SERVE THE LORD...DOES PAY REALLY MATTER ? " I shall leave this thought here.....

Jason Upton - Just like you - Worship

2010-07-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

All time power song

2010-07-20T07:18:00.001+08:00

This is one of the song which is all time powerful no matter when you hear it ! =)



Shepherd of my soul, I give You full control

Wherever You may lead I will follow

I have made the choice, to listen to Your voice

Wherever You may lead, I will go

CHORUS :

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream

The Shepherd of my soul is by my side

Should I face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep

The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide

Random FB reply

2010-07-19T17:24:00.001+08:00

Well..last night..as usual..had a pretty long chat with H. Was just telling her abt this voice asking me if i wana go to N xxxx...i mean seriously...where do i even fit in to this thing !? I prayed abt it and told the Lord..unless i'm there to serve a purpose...if not..pls dun mention to me abt it.. :p

Right after i went home..the usual first thing i did was to turn on my FB...on my status i wrote " go onto the higher grounds with the Lord ". A non-believer fren replied " Er..go to Nxx xxxx..there are many mountains there..quite high one.." I was looking at the reply and i think..hmm..is that the place where my vision will be expanded..could it just be the " higher height " that the Lord wants to bring me ?? I need clarity and more confirmation.

Well..again..i'm leaving and commiting it to the Lord.. =) There are just too many obstacles i need to cross if this is what the Lord is telling me...but of cos...i know if that is what He wants..all i need to do is to say "Yes" to Him who will help me see thru all the obstacles.. =) At the end of the day...no matter where i go and do..i want to serve according to His purpose...to serve for a reason... dats all...simple as dat.

I actually even ask the Lord..is there even a purpose with the people i've been hanging around with lately ? =) For her..thru her sharing and all..woah...I gained Wisdom plus GST..haha... :p With the people...i learnt alot abt their culture...abt them...they are just as fun as erm...me...!? haha...I really enjoy their company though...funny people...I LIKE ! ;)